What are you afraid of?
I am afraid of losing the ones I love. I'm afraid of that the most. I'm afraid I will never have the chance to right all the wrongs I have made. I'm afraid noone will forgive me. I'm afraid I will never feel like I belong again. I'm afraid I'll never know what I want to do, where I want to be. I'm afraid you'll read this and laugh. I'm afraid of what people think of me. I'm afraid that I come off as a bad person. I'm afraid you don't believe me, when I say that's not true. I'm afraid I didn't try hard enough. I'm afraid to lose control. I'm afraid of lies, of gossip. I'm afraid of sleeping alone, in the dark. I'm afraid of love, it can all go so wrong, so quickly, but I'm also afraid of being alone. I'm afraid I will never see you again. I'm afraid you don't miss me. I'm afraid of you.
What is one of the nicest things you've ever done for another person?
This is hard to answer seeing as I'm a Youth Worker. I feel like I'm going some good everyday. I buy things for people alot. I don't think that counts. I guess just the fact that I do try really hard to be there for my friends, and give them relatively good advice on thing - Growing up I went through alot of things, which at the time seemed bad, but looking back, it's given me a wealth of knowledge that I'm only too willing to share.
How did you spend summers when you were a kid?
Growing up in a big family meant that most summers were an each to their own kind of thing. My parents couldn't afford to take us on big trips, but we did travel to Auckland pretty much every Christmas to spend time with my grandparents. We'd usually stay with them out east for a week, then we would all go down to Hahei Beach on the Coromandel, my grandparents had a huge campervan there. I remember lots of sand, and sun, beestings and scraped knees. Back in Naenae we went bush alot, built forts, and helped the city council keep the bush clean and sign posted. There was a huge watering hole at the top of one of the bushes which we went swimming in - I wouldn't do it these days, and I can't understand why my parents let us do it - By summer the water was stagnant and mosquito infested - but we never got sick.
What was the last wedding you went to? Were you in the wedding?
I could be wrong, but I believe the last wedding I went to was an old youth group friends, Karl Dickson. I can't eloborate here, as I barely remember it, but I do still have a souvenir from the day - a kebab stick with a little note on it that says "Peppermint Balls." I wasn't in the ceremony.
If you could rename yourself in real life, what would you choose, and why?
I'm named after my grandmother, who passed away before I was born. I like the name Juliet - I certainly don't love it, but I've learned to live with it. It was hard growing up with the name, I was teased alot about where my "Romeo" was. I like Juliet, it's romantic, and hardly plain - but Juliet is of French origin, and it would've been nice to have been named something with more of an Arabic origin. Anyway, I guess if I could choose, I would choose something quite classic, and regal. I'm not really one for fun, hip names. I prefer something that will last a lifetime. I guess Juliet will have to do.
What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Probably looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how THEY feel. Whether it be good or bad, to have someone show that much emotion towards you is always quite difficult to take in. I'd imagine they would feel the same way if you were looking into their eyes, and telling them something important.
Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way? If not WHAT CHANGED to make you feel differently?
I don't get really angry that often. It might seem like I do, but there have only been a few times in my life that I have been filled with rage. One of those times, I punched my brother in the face. The last time it happened, it was because someone kept something from me they shouldn't have. I'm not as angry now, but it still hurts me that it happened. I guess I am slowly moving on - I had hoped it wouldn't take this long, but I still think about it pretty much everyday.
You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you say to them?
I would call a radio station. It's required by law that all radio stations record all phones call they get, incase of slanderous remarks made by callers, or things said that may break the Radio Broadcasting Laws. Anyway, I would call a radio station, and say all I had to say, and be content that people could listen to it over, and over again.
You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days?
I would tell certain people. Knowing this country, the news would get around pretty fast anyway, and I'm sure some celebrations would be had. With my remaining days, I would try to make amends with people I have hurt, or upset, and hope the fact that I am dying would convince them to forgive me.
You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why?
a. $20,000
b. no more worries.
Definitely no more worries. $20,000 doesn't go far these days, and by choosing no more worries, it wouldn't matter how much money I had, it wouldn't worry me!
You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
Of course I would. If my boss couldn't understand why I was late, when I was saving a drowning dog, I wouldn't want to work for the heartless bastard anyway.
You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or Why not?
I have an unfortunate condition in which guilt makes me physically ill. If I didn't tell me partner, he would soon end up with a chronically sick girlfriend on his hands. I'd much rather tell the truth. Cheating happens for a reason, and some things aren't meant to be.
Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you ( or did you ) do/say?
I would thank my friend for being honest and talking about it with me. I would let them know that while I am extremely flattered, I love my boy thing very much, and wouldn't do anything to compromise that. I would add that I hoped we could remain friends, and then I would take them out for a drink, get them wasted, and pawn them off to the first available man/woman in sight. Just kidding about that last bit.
Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
I would. The last person I know who died was a close friend of mines younger brother. On the day he died, my friend had a baby. That baby will never know his Uncle, and he was taken far too soon from this world. I would definitely give up a year of my life, so Vorn could spend one more day with his family.
Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Perhaps not in the past. But now, I think I'm a pretty good person to have a friend. So yes.
Does love = sex? sex = love?
Neither. Just because one is in love, doesn't necessarily mean sex is a given. We only have to look at Christians to know this. And just because someone fucks you, it doesn't mean they love you. I think all females know this.
Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
It depends how long I'd known the co-worker. It's a tough question, because my heart says I would offer to leave, but my head knows that is a stupid decision. Unfortunately, in a work situation, this can happen, and at one stage, I would've been the newest employee, and I could've been asked to leave. I probably wouldn't leave my job for them, but I would try and help them to find a new way of supporting themselves.
When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
Sometime last year, and I don't really want to go into it.
What would be (or what was) harder; for you to tell a friend you love them or that you do not love them back?
Probably that I don't love them back. Unrequited love is such a bitch .. the biggest bitch in the world, and nothing, absolutely nothing feels worse than loving someone, and that person not feeling the same way.
What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
Definitely my familia. I can't even begin to imagine being without them - they are the only people in the world that will be there for me, no matter what.
Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
Well, I told my rats that I loved them a couple of hours ago. I tell my friends I love them all the time as well.
Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. Who do you wish was there with you?
Cam. But it's probably him walking around outside the window.
Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Yes, for 2 reasons. 1) I recently done my CPR training, and First Aid certificate, and 2) I'm not a heartless bitch.
You are holding onto your grandmothers hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
I'd let my Grandmother fall. Because, I know, if for some fucked up reason I was in this situation, that's what my Grandmother would tell me to do. We both know she has had a long, and fulfilling life, and we both know the baby has a long life ahead of it. It would be a bloody hard decision, and ultimately, if I could, I would pass both hands onto someone else who was around, haha.
When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
Every bloody day.
Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
Broken hearts eventually mend, and to never feel love is a tragedy. What do you think?
I am afraid of losing the ones I love. I'm afraid of that the most. I'm afraid I will never have the chance to right all the wrongs I have made. I'm afraid noone will forgive me. I'm afraid I will never feel like I belong again. I'm afraid I'll never know what I want to do, where I want to be. I'm afraid you'll read this and laugh. I'm afraid of what people think of me. I'm afraid that I come off as a bad person. I'm afraid you don't believe me, when I say that's not true. I'm afraid I didn't try hard enough. I'm afraid to lose control. I'm afraid of lies, of gossip. I'm afraid of sleeping alone, in the dark. I'm afraid of love, it can all go so wrong, so quickly, but I'm also afraid of being alone. I'm afraid I will never see you again. I'm afraid you don't miss me. I'm afraid of you.
What is one of the nicest things you've ever done for another person?
This is hard to answer seeing as I'm a Youth Worker. I feel like I'm going some good everyday. I buy things for people alot. I don't think that counts. I guess just the fact that I do try really hard to be there for my friends, and give them relatively good advice on thing - Growing up I went through alot of things, which at the time seemed bad, but looking back, it's given me a wealth of knowledge that I'm only too willing to share.
How did you spend summers when you were a kid?
Growing up in a big family meant that most summers were an each to their own kind of thing. My parents couldn't afford to take us on big trips, but we did travel to Auckland pretty much every Christmas to spend time with my grandparents. We'd usually stay with them out east for a week, then we would all go down to Hahei Beach on the Coromandel, my grandparents had a huge campervan there. I remember lots of sand, and sun, beestings and scraped knees. Back in Naenae we went bush alot, built forts, and helped the city council keep the bush clean and sign posted. There was a huge watering hole at the top of one of the bushes which we went swimming in - I wouldn't do it these days, and I can't understand why my parents let us do it - By summer the water was stagnant and mosquito infested - but we never got sick.
What was the last wedding you went to? Were you in the wedding?
I could be wrong, but I believe the last wedding I went to was an old youth group friends, Karl Dickson. I can't eloborate here, as I barely remember it, but I do still have a souvenir from the day - a kebab stick with a little note on it that says "Peppermint Balls." I wasn't in the ceremony.
If you could rename yourself in real life, what would you choose, and why?
I'm named after my grandmother, who passed away before I was born. I like the name Juliet - I certainly don't love it, but I've learned to live with it. It was hard growing up with the name, I was teased alot about where my "Romeo" was. I like Juliet, it's romantic, and hardly plain - but Juliet is of French origin, and it would've been nice to have been named something with more of an Arabic origin. Anyway, I guess if I could choose, I would choose something quite classic, and regal. I'm not really one for fun, hip names. I prefer something that will last a lifetime. I guess Juliet will have to do.
What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Probably looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how THEY feel. Whether it be good or bad, to have someone show that much emotion towards you is always quite difficult to take in. I'd imagine they would feel the same way if you were looking into their eyes, and telling them something important.
Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way? If not WHAT CHANGED to make you feel differently?
I don't get really angry that often. It might seem like I do, but there have only been a few times in my life that I have been filled with rage. One of those times, I punched my brother in the face. The last time it happened, it was because someone kept something from me they shouldn't have. I'm not as angry now, but it still hurts me that it happened. I guess I am slowly moving on - I had hoped it wouldn't take this long, but I still think about it pretty much everyday.
You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you say to them?
I would call a radio station. It's required by law that all radio stations record all phones call they get, incase of slanderous remarks made by callers, or things said that may break the Radio Broadcasting Laws. Anyway, I would call a radio station, and say all I had to say, and be content that people could listen to it over, and over again.
You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days?
I would tell certain people. Knowing this country, the news would get around pretty fast anyway, and I'm sure some celebrations would be had. With my remaining days, I would try to make amends with people I have hurt, or upset, and hope the fact that I am dying would convince them to forgive me.
You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why?
a. $20,000
b. no more worries.
Definitely no more worries. $20,000 doesn't go far these days, and by choosing no more worries, it wouldn't matter how much money I had, it wouldn't worry me!
You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
Of course I would. If my boss couldn't understand why I was late, when I was saving a drowning dog, I wouldn't want to work for the heartless bastard anyway.
You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or Why not?
I have an unfortunate condition in which guilt makes me physically ill. If I didn't tell me partner, he would soon end up with a chronically sick girlfriend on his hands. I'd much rather tell the truth. Cheating happens for a reason, and some things aren't meant to be.
Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you ( or did you ) do/say?
I would thank my friend for being honest and talking about it with me. I would let them know that while I am extremely flattered, I love my boy thing very much, and wouldn't do anything to compromise that. I would add that I hoped we could remain friends, and then I would take them out for a drink, get them wasted, and pawn them off to the first available man/woman in sight. Just kidding about that last bit.
Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
I would. The last person I know who died was a close friend of mines younger brother. On the day he died, my friend had a baby. That baby will never know his Uncle, and he was taken far too soon from this world. I would definitely give up a year of my life, so Vorn could spend one more day with his family.
Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Perhaps not in the past. But now, I think I'm a pretty good person to have a friend. So yes.
Does love = sex? sex = love?
Neither. Just because one is in love, doesn't necessarily mean sex is a given. We only have to look at Christians to know this. And just because someone fucks you, it doesn't mean they love you. I think all females know this.
Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
It depends how long I'd known the co-worker. It's a tough question, because my heart says I would offer to leave, but my head knows that is a stupid decision. Unfortunately, in a work situation, this can happen, and at one stage, I would've been the newest employee, and I could've been asked to leave. I probably wouldn't leave my job for them, but I would try and help them to find a new way of supporting themselves.
When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
Sometime last year, and I don't really want to go into it.
What would be (or what was) harder; for you to tell a friend you love them or that you do not love them back?
Probably that I don't love them back. Unrequited love is such a bitch .. the biggest bitch in the world, and nothing, absolutely nothing feels worse than loving someone, and that person not feeling the same way.
What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
Definitely my familia. I can't even begin to imagine being without them - they are the only people in the world that will be there for me, no matter what.
Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
Well, I told my rats that I loved them a couple of hours ago. I tell my friends I love them all the time as well.
Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. Who do you wish was there with you?
Cam. But it's probably him walking around outside the window.
Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Yes, for 2 reasons. 1) I recently done my CPR training, and First Aid certificate, and 2) I'm not a heartless bitch.
You are holding onto your grandmothers hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
I'd let my Grandmother fall. Because, I know, if for some fucked up reason I was in this situation, that's what my Grandmother would tell me to do. We both know she has had a long, and fulfilling life, and we both know the baby has a long life ahead of it. It would be a bloody hard decision, and ultimately, if I could, I would pass both hands onto someone else who was around, haha.
When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
Every bloody day.
Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
Broken hearts eventually mend, and to never feel love is a tragedy. What do you think?