Today, I am having the worst PTSD episode I have ever had. I think I am having it because I have had more sleep this week and thus have had more dreams, which is where my PTSD primarily manifests. I can't talk to anyone, even those I want to because I just CAN'T. I woke up a screaming, crying mess this morning with no one...
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tiger_fodder:
Good to see your pretty face back! Can we all get back to our usual avatars? I am keeping mine up for a while, though. I like my face sometimes.
tiger_fodder:
You are a machine! I love the excerpt... 
I have now slept three of the past four nights. I feel SO much better I can't even say. Looks like my no sleep spell is at an end for the moment. Hopefully for a long time. I want to thank everyone who was so supportive while I was having a rough time. It really means a lot to me. Really. On the down side...
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greekdevils:
Would you mind shipping your bed UPS here for a week? I heard it has these therapeutic powers that help those who need sleep 
Kinda sucks about the school thing and I"m sure you spent lotsa money on those classes, but I'd agree that its the right thing to do. You definitely need to get as high grades as you can because it will help you find a higher paying job.
Kinda sucks about the school thing and I"m sure you spent lotsa money on those classes, but I'd agree that its the right thing to do. You definitely need to get as high grades as you can because it will help you find a higher paying job.
ironstein:
Ah... good news
This morning was the fifth in a row that I was still wake to see the sun come up. I have sat outside throughout the night every night this week and have seen Orion's Belt and The Big Dipper in every conceivable position in the sky. I don't even lie in bed and watch tv now because I just don't care. I have lost five...
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kyletastic:
damn I would have jumped off a building by now! Hope you get sleep soon!
kpan:
Hey gorgeous...thanks for droppin by and sharing.....glad u like the photos...tis a beautiful place indeed and right now it is shining....Autumn(Fall) here is so mesmerizing......hows the sleep thingy????
This is now my fourth day with no sleep. I feel pretty much ok I think, but then, I don't really know. I had a creepy hallucination last night. I almost drove off the road on my way home from work tonight. Yeah, I need to close my eyes and not open them again for a week. That would be so awesome I can't even...
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tiger_fodder:
I hope you'll get some sleep...it looks like you won't though. 
metaverse:
I thought I'd leave you with something that I always enjoy reading from time to time.
I am a man, and men are animals who tell stories.
This is a gift from God, who spoke our species into
being, but left the end of our story untold.
That mystery is troubling to us.
How could it be otherwise?
Without the final part, we think, how are we to
make sense of all that went before:
which is to say, our lives?
So we make stories of our own,
in fevered and envious imitation of our Maker,
hoping that we'll tell, by chance, what God left untold.
And finishing our tale,
come to understand why we were born.
It's from Clive Barker. It always helps me when I read it. I hope you get some sleep.
I am a man, and men are animals who tell stories.
This is a gift from God, who spoke our species into
being, but left the end of our story untold.
That mystery is troubling to us.
How could it be otherwise?
Without the final part, we think, how are we to
make sense of all that went before:
which is to say, our lives?
So we make stories of our own,
in fevered and envious imitation of our Maker,
hoping that we'll tell, by chance, what God left untold.
And finishing our tale,
come to understand why we were born.
It's from Clive Barker. It always helps me when I read it. I hope you get some sleep.
I brought up something pretty unpleasant from my past last night that I maybe should not have because today it's kind of weighing on my mind a little heavier than I would like it too. It isn't something I dwell on, but something that kind of gets in and makes itself comfortable once in awhile if I don't keep an eye on the door. I'll...
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chriztian:
I agree with what BRS said. You have to make yourself better. A good support group is awesome, but can't replace your own feelings. I hope that you continue to deal with it well.
I am having a major catharsis, I think. Or working up to having one. It has been a really weird year for me all around. In February, my mom told me she was leaving my dad after thirty two years of being married. This was not bad news to me. My father and I have never liked each other. He is a verbal abuser who...
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radio_sweetheart:
Thanks for sharing Jane. It looks like you've learned a lot in the last year and I think you're growing a lot as your shrink (congrats on that too).
Good luck!
Good luck!
stradyvarius:
Yeah!
Sometimes I talk to much!
Sometimes I talk to much!
Here's hoping, right? Hey, a gal can be optimistic. I wrote my first paper of the semester tonight. I wanna have some flippin' fun! I felt up some awesome boobies this weekend (and had mine felt up in return). Yay me! I'm going to South Dakota this weekend with one of my best friends. Are there any cute SD guys on here who want to...
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tinyelvis:
Are those taken while you're driving? Ha!
brightredscream:
I'm glad that you appreciate my comments on your blogs sugar ♥
As for me not mentioning you on my kissing list - don't take offense - I don't know you well enough just yet...I'm sure in time that will change
As for me not mentioning you on my kissing list - don't take offense - I don't know you well enough just yet...I'm sure in time that will change
I had to erase the old blog 'cause it was bugging me. I decided I am not really a nutjob and saying the things I was saying would not accomplish anything in the long run. I still ask...what the hell is there to be afraid of? What is the worst that can happen if you just sit back and see what happens?
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formus:
Jesus, get in your car. I apologize for the gas, but Christ.
tinyelvis:
New Boobs! ~~ ~~ ~~a NOFX song!
Whats up tonight?
Whats up tonight?
How do you tell someone you just KNOW when you know they won't hear you?
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tinyelvis:
No! If you'd like, we could spend a little bit longer on just exactly How cool I am!
My older brother had all these dudes posters up in his room as kids. Scared the shit out of me!
Looking back at it now, I see a heavy metal Opera. That's it, an opera.
If you cannot tell, I'm tripping down Heavy Metal memory lane tonight...
My older brother had all these dudes posters up in his room as kids. Scared the shit out of me!
Looking back at it now, I see a heavy metal Opera. That's it, an opera.
If you cannot tell, I'm tripping down Heavy Metal memory lane tonight...
brightredscream:
Just do it.
You have nothing to lose really.
You have nothing to lose really.
I had the single greatest epiphany of my life tonight. I was in the midst of a bit of an emotional struggle...one that has been going on for the better part of this year and was keeping me from being my awesome self and was robbing me of my ability to just chill the fuck out and go with the natural flow of things. Then...
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tinyelvis:
Friends? Trust me, you wanna be friends with this one!
malkav11:
Well. I really, genuinely do not know if I'd be what you're looking for. (Hell, I don't really know what you're looking for.)
But I *am* single. And a cursory eyeballing of your profile suggests that we do at least have some things in common. (Tool. Tarantino. Many, many videogames. Possibly other things.)
So here's my proposal: we pick a mutually used IM service (I'd most recommend Google Talk, since that's what I can be relied on to have running). And if our IM conversations are at all interesting, then things could progress from there.
I suggest IMs mostly because I don't feel like SG works very well for holding conversations with one other person. I mean, I really like Necia and Zarth and several of the other people on my friends list, and somehow I hardly ever wind up talking specifically to them. A bit of interplay in a general thread, at most.
If you'd rather not, that's fine. I have confidence that sooner or later you will find that guy. I mean, there's over a million people in the metro area. Surely at least one of them's a decent, single guy that would dig you and vice versa.
But I *am* single. And a cursory eyeballing of your profile suggests that we do at least have some things in common. (Tool. Tarantino. Many, many videogames. Possibly other things.)
So here's my proposal: we pick a mutually used IM service (I'd most recommend Google Talk, since that's what I can be relied on to have running). And if our IM conversations are at all interesting, then things could progress from there.
I suggest IMs mostly because I don't feel like SG works very well for holding conversations with one other person. I mean, I really like Necia and Zarth and several of the other people on my friends list, and somehow I hardly ever wind up talking specifically to them. A bit of interplay in a general thread, at most.
If you'd rather not, that's fine. I have confidence that sooner or later you will find that guy. I mean, there's over a million people in the metro area. Surely at least one of them's a decent, single guy that would dig you and vice versa.