This is now my fourth day with no sleep. I feel pretty much ok I think, but then, I don't really know. I had a creepy hallucination last night. I almost drove off the road on my way home from work tonight. Yeah, I need to close my eyes and not open them again for a week. That would be so awesome I can't even say. I just feel really alone and there isn't anything anyone can say to take it away right now. I feel like I am getting over the last hurdle I need to get over before everything finally falls into place...at least for awhile. I was really upset about the loss of something for a long time, and I know now that it was not what I really needed to make my life complete, or at least as complete as my life can be right now. I feel like I'm just floating around in some kind of purgatory. It really isn't so bad...it's not good, but not bad. I will survive this. Overall, this is the most positive about my life I have felt in a long time, and that has to mean something. It can't NOT mean something. My life is meant to be more than this.
In the half-light, I understand.
Things are what they are.
In the half-light.
In the half-light, I understand.
Things are what they are.
In the half-light.
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I am a man, and men are animals who tell stories.
This is a gift from God, who spoke our species into
being, but left the end of our story untold.
That mystery is troubling to us.
How could it be otherwise?
Without the final part, we think, how are we to
make sense of all that went before:
which is to say, our lives?
So we make stories of our own,
in fevered and envious imitation of our Maker,
hoping that we'll tell, by chance, what God left untold.
And finishing our tale,
come to understand why we were born.
It's from Clive Barker. It always helps me when I read it. I hope you get some sleep.