jamwise

Fuck I always come here with the aim of entering a good constructive blog and then when I open up the box to type in I can never put anything out into it. Alright, I'm really gonna try...

Existence is horrendously tedious when all your friends are going out with all your other friends. Or they simply hate you. I really need to be out meeting people but its not exactly easy when theres your friends relationship bullshit barring you to a degree from doing so. I have about 3 days left on my SG account so trying to meet folk through this isnt going to really work either.

FUUUUCK!

I'm losing my shit here. Seriously. It's probably a good thing I cant drink alcohol at the moment...

Part of the problem is I have nothing to keep myself occupied with but the junk in this room (which there is alot of), I just feel bad when I try and watch something or play something, like I'm wasting time that could be spent socialising, even though I know in reality I probably wouldnt be anyway. So I tend to just sit here at my desk playing music and dwelling on my loneratedness.

Melbourne is starting to feel very small again.




Man that sounded so fucking emo.