jaeiam

Thank fuck I didn't have to work today! Unfortunately it is because my lil man is in need of antibiotics...another ear infection So I will be taking him to the pediatrician today. I also need to find daycare. Calling around to a few places...$45.00 a day! What the fuck?! So basically I would be working to pay for daycare. I don't know what to do.
It means a lot to me to have him interact with other toddlers and to follow a curriculum, balanced meals and day. It is important for his development. I am sure I will figure something out.
~I'm tired! I didn't get any sleep last night. Tonight I am going to take a "ME NIGHT" No other people can participate. I will take a long bath, with candles lit, listen to fiona apple and just relax. I will get out put on my robe and cook in cndlelight. Iwill eat couscous and grapeleaves, sip on sangeria. Maybe eat something ridiculous like strawberry cheesecake or cherry garcia. Lounge around with my bluesy music playing or maybe read for awhile. The emptiness of my bed might not seem so lonely with my tired head resting and my limbs streched out. This time I'll take for me is deserved I feel. I think it is about time I start to enjoy "myself". Enjoy 'me' , be able to be alone with myself, not have to fill time with others.
It is true... that imprisonment is a state of mind. Once you make peace with yourself, you are free. Only you can imprison yourself. Only you can free your mind.