jackrabbitslimm

god damn it, I didn't get the job as the Tattoo Host.
Fuck i would have loved to have had that job, but i knew that I probably wouldn't get the job since usually they hire women for that position.
13 years of customer service, useless.
Damn, and it was so close to my apartment too.
I just want to find a job that makes me want to go to work in the morning.
Not some job I hate but go to for the paycheck.
My money is running low, i need something soon.
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH frustration!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So to combat the feeling bad for myself I decided to compile I list of all the things that I'm thankful for or that just make me happy. Its suppose to help kick the blues in the balls:

-Friend from Australia possibly visiting in November or when it gets warm next spring
- Extra poppy Ramones songs
- The C.C. Club birthday parties
- my yellow shoes
- Ghostbusters
- Parfrey's Glen
- Jules and hanging out in the 'shire
- Sitting on the Monona Terrace at 3 in the morning when strong warm winds blow off the lake
- The 'Mats
- My Club Club Crew( even though I don't hang as much lately)
- Awesome screenprints
- Unmapped out road trips
- Shows with In Defence and Dillinger Four on the bill
- Colored vinyl
- Long hot showers with no time limit
- Mac n Cheese Pizza
- 21+ shows with NoFx
- my enormous bed.
- Sailor Jerry's spiced rum
- Sleeping late with someone next to me
- Dorky haircuts( this includes lightning bolts shaved into the side of my head)
- Wrestling video games
- xanax
- Triple Rock's poutine
- raspberry grape vitamin water
- boobs
- Riding the Merrimac Ferry late at night
- Kurt Vonnegut books
- puppy breath
- good horror action figures
- swearing ( especially saying "fuck" or "cunt" or "cocksucker"
- walking around naked
- Jameson and cokes
- Bowling and yelling Big Lebowski quotes
- laying on my couch with no purpose
- DIY 241 movies at the theater
- Movie Mondays in the winter
- falling asleep next to someone
- Chocolate covered pretzels
- good horror movies
- getting new tattoos
- when new tattoos heal
- getting fun stuff in the mail
- taking photographs
- Six Feet Under(the show)
- Fraggle Rock
- playing in the rain when it is really really warm outside
- having money to spend
- warm windy nights
- biking around the lake
- playing air guitar or singing poorly to songs in the car
- finding clothes that fit me
- new york vanilla ice cream
- riding the subway drunk
- watching Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou
- playing with short haired puppies or declawed kittens
- watching things explode
- back massages

I actually do feel a bit better now if only slightly.
"Now if you'll excuse me I'm going on an overnight drunk and in a week I'm going to set out to find the thing that killed my friend"