Yesterday's expected 'quick trip' to the pediatrician became a long horrible experience. I have takeBlaize to have a chest X ray. He might have restricted airway disease (RAD) which is a precursor to asthma. They ordered a breathing machine and are having it sent to my house. I have to give him breathing treatments every 4- 6 hours. I hope that my boy can be...
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Thank fuck I didn't have to work today! Unfortunately it is because my lil man is in need of antibiotics...another ear infection 
So I will be taking him to the pediatrician today. I also need to find daycare. Calling around to a few places...$45.00 a day! What the fuck?! So basically I would be working to pay for daycare. I don't know what to do....
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So I will be taking him to the pediatrician today. I also need to find daycare. Calling around to a few places...$45.00 a day! What the fuck?! So basically I would be working to pay for daycare. I don't know what to do.... Read More
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inara:
Aw, that's sweet, I'm in central phoenix though 
tattooedyourmom:
I love you baby!!!!! Is she cute? Have I met her?
Thank fuck I didn't have to work today! Unfortunately it is because my lil man is in need of antibiotics...another ear infection So I will be taking him to the pediatrician today. I also need to find daycare. Calling around to a few places...$45.00 a day! What the fuck?! So basically I would be working to pay for daycare. I don't know what to do....
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So I will be taking him to the pediatrician today. I also need to find daycare. Calling around to a few places...$45.00 a day! What the fuck?! So basically I would be working to pay for daycare. I don't know what to do.... Read More
Life is a joke, it's funny. It's cruel and hilarious. It's ridiculous, unpredictable, and predictable.
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codemonkeym:
Watch out for that tree! 
maxxus:
George, George, George of the Jungle..
I'm reading this book that was recommended to me and this song comes to mind...
The Postal Service -
'Nothing Better'
Would someone please call a surgeon
who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
that you're deserting
for better company
I can't accept that it's over
and I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
in the third quarter...
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The Postal Service -
'Nothing Better'
Would someone please call a surgeon
who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
that you're deserting
for better company
I can't accept that it's over
and I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
in the third quarter...
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diversenine:
No Pain, No Gain. Ever. The story of Life.
maxxus:
you're back! 
I took my pill...It makes me drowsy and nauseous. It makes me daydream instead of focus on driving. Its supposed to cure my ailments and dysfuction. Until then I guess I will be a zombie. 
serric:
well that sucks but it does make you like alot of the rest of the world. only we need to knock your IQ down some then you can be in politics. bad word I said that!!
mothra:
Sounds like the ones I was on for a while, it's an interesting adjustment period...
I would just like to say that I really appreciate the support from my friends on this site. It means a lot to me that people enjoy reading what I have to say, and care about me enough to offer kind words, advice or just a shoulder. I will get through this heartache that is true , its just nice to know that I am...
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lesleyslenning:
you're a tough cookie 
cornelius:
i just wanna tell you that you are one of the few people that i've never met who make me want to reconsider the whole sgaz business... when you comment on my little rants, you make me feel at ease with my mind, and for that you are glorious.
it doesn't always have to work one way... it can work the other way too. the power that you give to me, i'll try to get back to you.
-bobby
[Edited on Sep 25, 2003]
it doesn't always have to work one way... it can work the other way too. the power that you give to me, i'll try to get back to you.
-bobby
[Edited on Sep 25, 2003]
Not another word of it. Healing in session. My broken heart can not withstand the torture, the torment. Time needed away from the pain. Space needed away from those words. That energy draining stress needs to be forgotten for awhile. Moving on....letting go...
No names anymore, please.
No tales of horror of the heart.
I do release some pain while on my journal but if...
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No names anymore, please.
No tales of horror of the heart.
I do release some pain while on my journal but if...
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mothra:
yeah, Wednesday night, whatever that is, its on... just you know... keep on keeping on.
suicidesmitty:
bashing!!!????
Not only once, not twice, so many fucking times now. I can't keep track. People I get close to tell me it is BETTER, their lives are better without me. I hear it only though from the people that take pieces of me with them when they go. I don't feel better I feel empty. So empty now. I destroy myself NO one can destroy...
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dee1:
not cool.
deversenine...you may have some things that you are holding against jae yet you have to look at it as....thats "your" guys problem and doesnt need to be released to everyone. it may make you feel bigger at that time yet all its doing is making someone feel horrible about themselves and if you really cared about that person you wouldnt want them to be upset.
you two need to realize that these problems that you two are going through with eachother are your problems and not the whole worlds. live life. love life. sometimes there are some bad points yet you keep on trucking.....dont put anyones name to shame....shit happens...
deversenine...you may have some things that you are holding against jae yet you have to look at it as....thats "your" guys problem and doesnt need to be released to everyone. it may make you feel bigger at that time yet all its doing is making someone feel horrible about themselves and if you really cared about that person you wouldnt want them to be upset.
you two need to realize that these problems that you two are going through with eachother are your problems and not the whole worlds. live life. love life. sometimes there are some bad points yet you keep on trucking.....dont put anyones name to shame....shit happens...
mothra:
Deep Breath... you'll be alright.
say what you want
do what you say
say what you mean
mean what you say
do what you say
say what you mean
mean what you say
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kajiseele:
exactly
diversenine:
You sure do have a purty mouth.......can we jump off a bridge together?
OK what is it tonight?
please just tell me what the hell is wrong,
Do you want to eat, do you want to sleep, do you want to drown?
Just settle down, settle down, settle down...
I'll give you candy, give you diamonds, give you pills,
Give you anything you want, hundred dollar bills,
I'll even let you watch the shows you want to see,...
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please just tell me what the hell is wrong,
Do you want to eat, do you want to sleep, do you want to drown?
Just settle down, settle down, settle down...
I'll give you candy, give you diamonds, give you pills,
Give you anything you want, hundred dollar bills,
I'll even let you watch the shows you want to see,...
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diversenine:
anything...................
mexicore:
hey thanx. i didnt design them myself exactley. i drew sketches of my ideas and then sat down with the artists put them all together to come up with the actual piece. and I love that song.
Yesterday i walked around in this daze completely disconnected from others and most of reality. It was strange for the first time in my life I had strangers walking up to me and asking me " what is wrong?" and "are you okay?" To answer these questions seemed ridiculous ,not only given the fact that these strangers couldnt possibly be effected by my emotions or...
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dee1:
......clouds in my coffee......
<3 jae....
call me so we can make out.....haha
<3 jae....
call me so we can make out.....haha
davidgr:
I have seen you also... small world huh?
i hope little dude gets better soon. .
it's probably none of my business but i have to say. . you might see love thru hateful words. . but it's not unconditional. .and that's the goal i think. .