itzjusme

....that last entry was stupid......

....except i still give props to speed_metal for being so awesome.....


i am a complete basketcase right now.

i can't keep my mind in one place

i want to fucking die

i don't know if i can handle this

i really don't

it may not be worth it if i can't be stable


btw- I am not writing this because I want anyone to read it...at this point- it has become more of an outlet for me. If you think I am too dramatic or too emotional than please fuck off. You don't know what I am going through at all.

Thanks to those who have been so kind to me

edited to say----> for those of you who were asking about the teaching position--- it is taking a long time-- but they e-mailed me back and it said


"Hey Lauren! Sorry about that. We are having some difficulties with
getting reference checks done. we are definately still interested so I
will have our recruitment coordinator call you with an offer while I get
those completed. Hope that's okay!"

I have been super worried about that....hopefully that means i will still get it...but it has been a few weeks....