so yea. this last semester nonsense is raping me down hardcore. it sucks! fortunately i have vacation time and im using it. 4 days off in a row is good for productivity. i found a really good way to get my work done, a technique that i forgot about.. i blame alcohol for me forgetting. none the less, this method is allowing me to get...
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wtf:
Can't have the ups without the downs I guess so I'm glad you are riding on top of that crest! Glad you and the girl are doing well too! You've got me interested in that technique now.... hmmm.. what could it be? Speedreading and energy drinks?
i get to see my girlie again 
we talked a lot, things seem to look a lot better 
its never good to rush decisions...
we talked a lot, things seem to look a lot better its never good to rush decisions...
wtf:
Good thing you did't rush right in there, break up with her and quit school huh?
Im thinking about breaking up with this girl i've been seeing lately. im not happy. she went to cali and i havent seen her in a good week and a half, and she doesnt seem to be in a hurry to see me. kinda feels like a hint, doesnt it? i dunno, im really not attached to her, but im just scared of getting hurt...
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brite_red_scream:
i say if you don't feel totally happy with someone....why waste your time. Especially if it's something fresh. It's more understandable to start feeling that way if you've been in the same tiresome relationship for years or something. I'm pretty slow at getting into any sort of committed relationship...so when doing so...i have to really...ReALLY be feeling the person on all kinds of levels and know they're feeling the same way too. i haven't had the butterflies for anyone in like a year...and yeah it sucks...but i don't want to have to just settle for what's there being offered to me...when it's time for me to fall in love...it'll come looking for me...so in the mean time...i'm just taking a break from it all.
i havent updated my journal in nearly two weeks now. i figure im due. so.. i guess lifes been good. my girl and i are doing ok i guess. we seem to argue way too much given the amount of time we've been going out. im not sure if its best for me to stay with her. im not sure if im doing it because...
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wtf:
Enjoy the uncertainty, if life was all planned out and we knew the ending, it would be really boring. Relationships included.
Have fun, it'll go by before you know it. Think about what you are arguing about, is it life altering? If something happened and she was gone tomorrow, would you miss her and regret the bickering? that's how I get by, and always enjoy the sex, no words needed sometimes, just a look in the eyes........
Have fun, it'll go by before you know it. Think about what you are arguing about, is it life altering? If something happened and she was gone tomorrow, would you miss her and regret the bickering?
that's how I get by, and always enjoy the sex, no words needed sometimes, just a look in the eyes........
wtf:
Excellent post, thank you for your perspective. Good to know I'm not the only one that doesn't has a McLife preordered at the drive thru. Sometimes it seems like a resume is the only thing in this country that defines a person. That coupled with my reunion last weekend left a bad taste in my mouth. Skydiving lessons may be in order. Anything that can't be put down on paper and lets me know I'm alive. SCAA ProRally in upper Michigan is coming up in a couple of weeks, something I know no one in my graduating class will be attending. Somehow that's comforting. 
school school and more school. i cant believe a month has already gone by! time is flying like no other right now. id kill for it to just slow the hell down.. its funny. my entire life i've been itching for time to fly, and now that it actually is i want it to slow down. wtf? oh well. whatever. it doesnt help that im...
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wtf:
Past experience are what make us learn but sometimes they hold us back. Like when it comes to love. Hang in there with school. Isn't it funny how time slows and speed up? Weird. Very.
thanks everyone for wishing me a happy bday. all said and done i had a good birthday. oddly enough i was already saying i was 24 a couple months before the fact, so it wasnt all that much of a shock to me. good food, friends and a lot of vodka and no hangover! made it a nice night..
it feels like this last semester...
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it feels like this last semester...
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kittyinabox:
Hey there,
Glad you had a great birthday!! How come you were telling people you were already 24?
Gainesville has some damage even though the eye of the storm went under us. UF is cancelling another day of classes due to most of the town (and state for that matter) being without power. Lucky me....I still have power and I'm praying it stays that way. There is all kinds of tree debis all over my deck...
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But, for the most part, everyone I've talked to seems to be getting by........
Ivan better not come......I don't think any building in Florida could take it.
Glad you had a great birthday!! How come you were telling people you were already 24?
Gainesville has some damage even though the eye of the storm went under us. UF is cancelling another day of classes due to most of the town (and state for that matter) being without power. Lucky me....I still have power and I'm praying it stays that way. There is all kinds of tree debis all over my deck...
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But, for the most part, everyone I've talked to seems to be getting by........
Ivan better not come......I don't think any building in Florida could take it.
school school and more school. its my last semester. im done december 18th. im freaking out a lot, but thats a good thing, right? i just have to make sure i stay on track and that i dont fall behind. i know what needs to get done, so i need to take care of it.
im also sort of seeing someone too.. its hard to...
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cece:
happy birthday.
kittyinabox:
Hey, Happy Birthday!!!!
And you have this nice long weekend to party hard
And you have this nice long weekend to party hard
Damn, lifes been good these last couple days. strangely enough im really happy to be going back to college. i think im gonna miss it when its all said and done. my classes are a lot of fun, i think ive found a new area that ill end up loving in my field.. this is a very good thing. sometimes im convinced im bi polar...
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wtf:
Time does have this way of stretching out and slowing down at odd times doesn't it? Sometimes it all seems too much and then others it fits just right. Glad things are turning out all right. So you've found your niche? That's very good. So many people get that fear right near the end and panic.
The Subie job has been long and coming of course. I've got a hella cover letter in progress to make up for my lack of experience complete with Baja Mexico pictures. (The only thing I thought I'd never gett excited to sell) I've been walking through proposals of 'me' in my head. Hard to when I have a tiny ego. Have to sell me first and all. Scared as hell and can't let it show. Have the interview for the Class Analyst job at a Customs Brokerage Firm tomorrow. Really don't want it. Doesn't get me all worked up inside. $5000 a year in tuition reimburement is cool and all but the $ isn't there upfront and that's not even the important part. I never, EVER in my previous life, (as in before this year) thought I would want to be a car salesperson. It certainly wasn't something I said I wanted to do as a little girl. If someone whose parents both work for Ford and have major family ties can buy one, I can sell them to anyone. I sell them all the time. I let people test drive mine, (with me in it of course) For now though I revel in the challenge of being the only female in a male dominated field. Of selling Scoob in the "Motor City" and triumphing. Some kid in a suped up Neon pulled up next to me. I could hear the turbo whine. Come talking when you have 4 on the floor. We exchanged smiles, he knew what I had, word is getting around. Who knows, with experience, I may move to the Subaru-Nissan-Mazda-VW dealer when the Skylines come out. Those thing sell themselves.
The Subie job has been long and coming of course. I've got a hella cover letter in progress to make up for my lack of experience complete with Baja Mexico pictures. (The only thing I thought I'd never gett excited to sell) I've been walking through proposals of 'me' in my head. Hard to when I have a tiny ego. Have to sell me first and all. Scared as hell and can't let it show. Have the interview for the Class Analyst job at a Customs Brokerage Firm tomorrow. Really don't want it. Doesn't get me all worked up inside. $5000 a year in tuition reimburement is cool and all but the $ isn't there upfront and that's not even the important part. I never, EVER in my previous life, (as in before this year) thought I would want to be a car salesperson. It certainly wasn't something I said I wanted to do as a little girl. If someone whose parents both work for Ford and have major family ties can buy one, I can sell them to anyone. I sell them all the time. I let people test drive mine, (with me in it of course) For now though I revel in the challenge of being the only female in a male dominated field. Of selling Scoob in the "Motor City" and triumphing. Some kid in a suped up Neon pulled up next to me. I could hear the turbo whine. Come talking when you have 4 on the floor. We exchanged smiles, he knew what I had, word is getting around. Who knows, with experience, I may move to the Subaru-Nissan-Mazda-VW dealer when the Skylines come out. Those thing sell themselves.
school starts on monday. i called into work sick today, the bosses didnt like that too much. apparently im supposed to call in an hour early, otherwise its a write up. either way i was gonna get one because my roomate was in the shower for a half hour again..
the bbq was fun.. went to boulder and went to a few house parties. i...
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last night was one of the most humbling moments in my life. i realized a lot of aweful stuff about myself that ive been guilty of for the past couple months. its so hard to look at myself in the mirror right now... its a really aweful feeling, but its one i have to learn from and make 100% sure that i NEVER make those...
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wtf:
Holy shit man! Was it a drug induced revelation or one that was more simply dawned upon? I love/hate those myself. There's nothing quite like not being pissed at yourself is there? At least you can get it and move on. Some people get stuck by refusing to admit they exist in the first place or putting the blame on other people or external forces.
As G.I Joe said: Knowing is 1/2 the battle...
Have fun at the BBQ
As G.I Joe said: Knowing is 1/2 the battle...
Have fun at the BBQ
kittyinabox:
....where did that come from?
....I hope your feeling more resolved.
yeah, the long distance thing sucks.......but, we'll get throught it. Have you seen that girl again?
....I wan't to go to a BBQ......nothing beats eating food off the grill in someone's back yard.
...and I'd do anything for it to be cold outside.....it's hot here in Gainesville, even when it rains of hours (even through Charley it was 90 degrees. Luckily, the herricane didn't come too far north.)
....I hope your feeling more resolved.
yeah, the long distance thing sucks.......but, we'll get throught it. Have you seen that girl again?
....I wan't to go to a BBQ......nothing beats eating food off the grill in someone's back yard.
...and I'd do anything for it to be cold outside.....it's hot here in Gainesville, even when it rains of hours (even through Charley it was 90 degrees. Luckily, the herricane didn't come too far north.)