so i have a new plan of action for my life. i think im going to have to move to california soon. like really soon 
colorados been my home for so long, its going to suck if (when) i have to leave it. the animation for the short is now truely and completely done. finally.. ive also been working my butt off on my 350z...
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colorados been my home for so long, its going to suck if (when) i have to leave it. the animation for the short is now truely and completely done. finally.. ive also been working my butt off on my 350z... Read More
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wow.. i havent updated the ole journal in some time. guess i havent had anything happen that i felt was worth mentioning. eh.
last night i had a really wierd dream that lasted for quite a while. i was in the bathroom doing my thing and there was this ghost that was screwing with me. i'd look away and he'd rearrange things in my bathroom...
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last night i had a really wierd dream that lasted for quite a while. i was in the bathroom doing my thing and there was this ghost that was screwing with me. i'd look away and he'd rearrange things in my bathroom...
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my project is nearing completion. i say this again and now it probably wont get done for another month. who knew rendering would take so damn long?? eh, as long as it gets done and i get a good job i dont care. i found yet another girlie, but this one comes with the stamp of approval (so far) from my closest friend.. so thats...
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abia:
Woohoo 
things in my life seem to be coming back under control again.. dont you hate it when it seems like everything thats happening is out of your control and all you can do is stand by and watch?? drives me up the wall. regardless, i feel like im back to my old self once again 
happy valentines day to all!!
happy valentines day to all!!
kittyinabox:
hey there,
Happy V-Day.
It's good to hear that your doing better. Remember to take care of your self first.......you can't help others if you are broken yourself.
Things are starting to go much better over here....it's even starting to warm up....it almost feels like mid-spring.
Take care.
-A
Happy V-Day.
It's good to hear that your doing better. Remember to take care of your self first.......you can't help others if you are broken yourself.
Things are starting to go much better over here....it's even starting to warm up....it almost feels like mid-spring.
Take care.
-A
abia:
Well that is good I think I am pretty close to being myself again also. I have been smiling for the last week and that is a good sign. I hope you had a good v day 
I think I am pretty close to being myself again also. I have been smiling for the last week and that is a good sign. I hope you had a good v day for the past couple days i've realized that i havent been uncomfortable in my very own skin. i feel like ive been up tight and really taking life way too seriously or something.. regardless of what im doing or not doing i obviously dont like it. that girl im 'openly dating'.. i dont know what happened or how it happened but i freaked out on...
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i feel like im going to college still. wake up, work on my short film, come home, eat dinner and work on it until i go to sleep. that or go to my other job, come home eat and work on the short some more. tommorow afternoon my animation is slated to be completed. i still need to do all the facial animation and change...
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abia:
It will pay off in the end. Even if the work seems endless right now. I am so tired sometimes because of my days. There should be 26 hours in a day. That would help out greatly. Good luck on your homework
im having one of those days when all i can do is look back on the past 24 years of my life and wonder how things would be different if i had known what i know now. im always the first person to look down on those with regrets, but lately im just flat out angry with myself. saving money, choosing the right place to...
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abia:
You can't do that to yourself by looking back on what you could've done. Eveything happens for a reason, you choose things for a certain reason and time passes. Look at what you have done.It will be all good
two nights ago i noticed for the first time a measureable amount of change in my personality and how i've begun to percieve the world and things in it. its fucking crazy.
ugh. my hearts really really fucking with me. like really fuckign with me. as much as i shouldnt feel the way i do.. well .. i do. so much is going on in my life and all i want to do is see that girl.. i dont know if im ready for a relationship and i know shes not, but i really do care a...
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abia:
It's so funny, eveytime I read your journal I feel the same way. Just keep busy that is what I do
today i had a strange feeling of what i can only describe as a newfound sense of self worth. i cant explain the feeling and i dont know if its real or an illusion.. let alone last for that matter. regardless, its a nice feeling. on a crappier note a key file in my current project magically ceased to work. fucking sucked, i lost a...
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How are?, You seem productive. Leaving Colorado was hard. But florida has been a good change. I will always be able to go back home. California will be nice. Where in Cali?
I like your "most humbling moment"......I wish mine do the same and stop treating me like he is the victim.
-A