why have i been so exhausted these past couple weeks or so? ive been utterly useless after 11 pm. everyone calls me a vampire because normally go to bed when the sun is coming up. now, by the time i get home from work im completely wiped out.
i think its time for me to build me a new computer. my babys getting old and...
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warm weather is coming back, i can feel it! its SLOWLY getting dark later and the nights are cooler and more pleasant. not painfully cold. ill get to put my rims back on my car in a couple months too. makes my loud nice car look like a loud nice car that attracts more cops..
ive decided that i need to start working out again,...
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kittyinabox:
....so, what happened to your warm weather?...
...how dare you refer to your self as a broken record!!!....That's a terrible thing to say...Turn away from the negativity mister!!!
I havent heard back from many more graduate programs. I'm not sure what that means. Of course it's good that I haven't gotten any more rejection letters. However, admission committees usually pick the first wave the first week in February and they contact you by phone if you get in (They only contact you by mail if you didn't make the cut). I haven't heard from anyone except for that one. A weird thing is that I know that I didn't get into Hawaii; I haven't heard anything from the IfA, but my REU advisor from there emailed me with a big apologize stating that I didn't get accepted (oops! ohwell, the news was taken much easier coming from him than some formal rejection letter).......So I have no idea. I fly out on the 4th for the weekend to test out the one I did get into. I better like it; if I don't, and I don't get in anywhere else, I don't know what I will do....probably go for my masters in physics (a big no-no)...and then go for my astronomy Ph.D....Anyway, I have till April 15 to decide....thats the big deadline for everyone.
...I get my schedule for next week tomorrow...This is my year off (were I do nothing but be a poor barista) and thus I am up for coffee anytime...But, I know exactly what it's like to go to school, work, and try to have a life all at the same time. I should have a Tue or Thus off real soon. I plan on being inn Boulder on Sunday afternoon to play with my friends, but I'm not sure what we will be up to.
-A
...how dare you refer to your self as a broken record!!!....That's a terrible thing to say...Turn away from the negativity mister!!!
I havent heard back from many more graduate programs. I'm not sure what that means. Of course it's good that I haven't gotten any more rejection letters. However, admission committees usually pick the first wave the first week in February and they contact you by phone if you get in (They only contact you by mail if you didn't make the cut). I haven't heard from anyone except for that one. A weird thing is that I know that I didn't get into Hawaii; I haven't heard anything from the IfA, but my REU advisor from there emailed me with a big apologize stating that I didn't get accepted (oops! ohwell, the news was taken much easier coming from him than some formal rejection letter).......So I have no idea. I fly out on the 4th for the weekend to test out the one I did get into. I better like it; if I don't, and I don't get in anywhere else, I don't know what I will do....probably go for my masters in physics (a big no-no)...and then go for my astronomy Ph.D....Anyway, I have till April 15 to decide....thats the big deadline for everyone.
...I get my schedule for next week tomorrow...This is my year off (were I do nothing but be a poor barista) and thus I am up for coffee anytime...But, I know exactly what it's like to go to school, work, and try to have a life all at the same time. I should have a Tue or Thus off real soon. I plan on being inn Boulder on Sunday afternoon to play with my friends, but I'm not sure what we will be up to.
-A
kittyinabox:
.........let me share my newest creation with you......almond chai......soy for me ofcourse......do you drink chai?????????if you do I would highly recommend it............
...so, next week I have friday and sunday off.......the rest of the week i pretty much close......so unless you have time on one of those days, we'll have to see what next week grants us...
...i'm not sure if I am determined....or just afraid to leave acidemia.....I'm a good student.....a physics Cum Laude...but, school has (until now) my entire life....All my years are split in to three parts: fall semester, spring semester, and SUMMER....sometimes I wonder if I am just afraid of the outside world......But, than again....I couldn't live one day with out thinking of physics and how the cosmos came to be.....I couldn't make my coffee without watching my creamer become chaotic....or if i don't drink it fast enought the laws of thermodynamics will transfer its warmth to my cold hands....it's not the PhD degree that interests me....it's the lifestyle.....the thought of getting paid to be curious.....and the enlightenment recieved when I find tiny answers to my big questions.....
******Good Night*********
-A
...so, next week I have friday and sunday off.......the rest of the week i pretty much close......so unless you have time on one of those days, we'll have to see what next week grants us...
...i'm not sure if I am determined....or just afraid to leave acidemia.....I'm a good student.....a physics Cum Laude...but, school has (until now) my entire life....All my years are split in to three parts: fall semester, spring semester, and SUMMER....sometimes I wonder if I am just afraid of the outside world......But, than again....I couldn't live one day with out thinking of physics and how the cosmos came to be.....I couldn't make my coffee without watching my creamer become chaotic....or if i don't drink it fast enought the laws of thermodynamics will transfer its warmth to my cold hands....it's not the PhD degree that interests me....it's the lifestyle.....the thought of getting paid to be curious.....and the enlightenment recieved when I find tiny answers to my big questions.....
******Good Night*********
-A
so i finally got my update on the book im working on. seems that im getting my name on the title page and theyre putting my art on the back of the book as well!! this is just awesome. its amazing exposure for me and a great chance to get real world experience while im still stuck in the world of the ivory tower. now...
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kittyinabox:
How was your weekend? I hope it was swell 
So yesterday I got off work at 9:45 PM and headed downtown to Cafe Netherworld...As soon as I got in I bolted for the bathroom and tore off my work clothes. I then found myself in a sea of black and grey clothing....it's a good thing I found a job where the dress code includes black formal wear (it also includes white and khaki, but I only go there if I have to)....I was happy to be out there again. For the past couple of weeks it seems that something always came up when I made plans to go out with friends.
I like Cafe Netherworld..have you ever been there? It's a cafe during the day and a bar at night. I was funning how I was ID for my soy chai last night.
From there we went to The Church. I had only been there one time previously for five mins and left because they weren't playing anything good. Apparently, Sunday nights is goth night and it turned out to be pretty good. They had two different rooms with two different DJ's. When one wasn't playing a good song, the other was. Thus I found myself dancing between rooms. Near the end of the night my friend, who had been there before wanted to show me the upstairs (Goth night is in the basement), where there is another club with an entirely different atmosphere. I didn't think twice on the invite up. As soon as I entered the room I was met with blank stares from girls from girls I swear I've only seen in magazines or from walking past a frat party while still in college. As waved in and out of crowds in my long black ballgown, gauze shirt, and trusty eyeliner, I was winked at by a pack of guys in sharp clothes. Normally, I would of found them attractive and normal, but being there at that moment I didn't....I returned downstairs where no one noticed me.
I like to think of myself as a pretty open minded person...so why did I feel so intimidated? It's not as if I only hang out with "Gothy" people. Infact, some of my closest friends are not goth, They are my friends just because they are...I'm usually the only one pushing for the gloom.
I don't think you should ever confine yourself to one category. No sub culture could ever encapsulate your entire identity...The hard part is learning how to balance them all...I'm not as goth as I used to be...because becoming a professional (astronomer) is important to me...but so is being comfortable in my own skin...I'm only saying all this because in the last few months I've realized a lot about myself and how being unhappy in one part of life allows life to keep going at first, but eventually, the other parts start to shut down to. Never let yourself just get by.your way to valuable
Of course Im ALWAYS up for coffee
-A
So yesterday I got off work at 9:45 PM and headed downtown to Cafe Netherworld...As soon as I got in I bolted for the bathroom and tore off my work clothes. I then found myself in a sea of black and grey clothing....it's a good thing I found a job where the dress code includes black formal wear (it also includes white and khaki, but I only go there if I have to)....I was happy to be out there again. For the past couple of weeks it seems that something always came up when I made plans to go out with friends.
I like Cafe Netherworld..have you ever been there? It's a cafe during the day and a bar at night. I was funning how I was ID for my soy chai last night.
From there we went to The Church. I had only been there one time previously for five mins and left because they weren't playing anything good. Apparently, Sunday nights is goth night and it turned out to be pretty good. They had two different rooms with two different DJ's. When one wasn't playing a good song, the other was. Thus I found myself dancing between rooms. Near the end of the night my friend, who had been there before wanted to show me the upstairs (Goth night is in the basement), where there is another club with an entirely different atmosphere. I didn't think twice on the invite up. As soon as I entered the room I was met with blank stares from girls from girls I swear I've only seen in magazines or from walking past a frat party while still in college. As waved in and out of crowds in my long black ballgown, gauze shirt, and trusty eyeliner, I was winked at by a pack of guys in sharp clothes. Normally, I would of found them attractive and normal, but being there at that moment I didn't....I returned downstairs where no one noticed me.
I like to think of myself as a pretty open minded person...so why did I feel so intimidated? It's not as if I only hang out with "Gothy" people. Infact, some of my closest friends are not goth, They are my friends just because they are...I'm usually the only one pushing for the gloom.
I don't think you should ever confine yourself to one category. No sub culture could ever encapsulate your entire identity...The hard part is learning how to balance them all...I'm not as goth as I used to be...because becoming a professional (astronomer) is important to me...but so is being comfortable in my own skin...I'm only saying all this because in the last few months I've realized a lot about myself and how being unhappy in one part of life allows life to keep going at first, but eventually, the other parts start to shut down to. Never let yourself just get by.your way to valuable
Of course Im ALWAYS up for coffee
-A
kittyinabox:
That is truly awsome about the book!!! You sound happy, thus, I am happy for you.
damn, that was a great night! me and my friends went to this place behind paris and the platt. some sort of warehouse thing. sick sick party, very good DJs and an all round great crew of people. all in all it was a good friday the 13th
happy valentines day!
happy valentines day!
kittyinabox:
Happy V-Day (That's Valintines not Vigina)...
Sounds like you had a good time on Friday. I didn't know there was anyting behind Paris....I remember when I started going there in high school and bying expensive ciggeretes and pitchers of crowbars....or could you only buy those by the glass....oh-well, we drank about the equivalent amount.
Yeah, fetish parties are a little different. I started going to them a few years ago when some friends introduced me to BDSM. At the time I knew nothing about the scene. I feel easily into the parties because I was healily into the goth scene; which for what ever reason mixes will with the fetish scene. I kept returning because of the people; I've met some of the kindest and open minded people there. I would show up to the club and after watching people scene for a bit I would freely dance into all hours of the night. I also remember countless times of setting on plush couches and carrying on converstations with others that contained no sexual content. Being in places like that made me realize that I'm not an outcast...some places in this world we all fit right in.
I wouldn't stress over making a demo. Everyone I know, including myself, always thinks they have nothing good to site. But it's not true. Remember you've been working hard the past few years on something. What ever became of that book project you were working on with firends?
Frappuccinos huh...I recomend a toffee nut one...with a pump or two of mocha..and an add shot if you feel the need.
-A
Sounds like you had a good time on Friday. I didn't know there was anyting behind Paris....I remember when I started going there in high school and bying expensive ciggeretes and pitchers of crowbars....or could you only buy those by the glass....oh-well, we drank about the equivalent amount.
Yeah, fetish parties are a little different. I started going to them a few years ago when some friends introduced me to BDSM. At the time I knew nothing about the scene. I feel easily into the parties because I was healily into the goth scene; which for what ever reason mixes will with the fetish scene. I kept returning because of the people; I've met some of the kindest and open minded people there. I would show up to the club and after watching people scene for a bit I would freely dance into all hours of the night. I also remember countless times of setting on plush couches and carrying on converstations with others that contained no sexual content. Being in places like that made me realize that I'm not an outcast...some places in this world we all fit right in.
I wouldn't stress over making a demo. Everyone I know, including myself, always thinks they have nothing good to site. But it's not true. Remember you've been working hard the past few years on something. What ever became of that book project you were working on with firends?
Frappuccinos huh...I recomend a toffee nut one...with a pump or two of mocha..and an add shot if you feel the need.
-A
life feels good again. its really nice from life not being good at all. got my car back, gettin a stereo tommorow. learned a lot about myself over the past couple months. my old friend/ex is gonna fly out and visit too! i havent seen her in a very long time.. i miss talking to that girl. schools going pretty well too... and! fridays gonna...
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kittyinabox:
..ok..so I was in the middle of writing a response and hit some random key that sent me back to the main page and erased all that I typed....I fucking hate MSN and Windows for that matter...so, below is some rendition of what I remember.
Yeah, I live kinda out there; just east of Parker. It's not too bad though; I work in Aurora.
Are you going to take you ex up on her invite? It's always good when you can be civil with you ex. I have two: with one I had the nasty, classic breakup and will probably never see again. The other, was a nice casual breakup and were still able to remain friends. The only bad thing about that was realizing that was should have never been together at all....I should call that boy...he's probably coding as we speak.
So my friend, who is pretty heavily into the bondage/fetish entertainment industry, is putting on an event this Saturday. Him and his friends production company are putting on an event called "Cupid's Fetish Feast". It's going to be big; Midori and Kumi will be headlining. I have been asked to participate. I'm not sure if I will however, I haven't performed in public for a long time and I don't feel as pretty as I once did. I would get in for free though; instead of paying $65.
Thanks for the music suggestions. Covenant and Zeromancer are good...do you like Assemblage 23?
..My favorite pics are in my "pic" tab, or click on the "See my favorite SG pics" button
(I'm just being a smartass)
Hey, when do you graduate? Doesn't that vice suck...It does nothing but hold me back!!!
Take care and be mischievous....
-A
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Yeah, I live kinda out there; just east of Parker. It's not too bad though; I work in Aurora.
Are you going to take you ex up on her invite? It's always good when you can be civil with you ex. I have two: with one I had the nasty, classic breakup and will probably never see again. The other, was a nice casual breakup and were still able to remain friends. The only bad thing about that was realizing that was should have never been together at all....I should call that boy...he's probably coding as we speak.
So my friend, who is pretty heavily into the bondage/fetish entertainment industry, is putting on an event this Saturday. Him and his friends production company are putting on an event called "Cupid's Fetish Feast". It's going to be big; Midori and Kumi will be headlining. I have been asked to participate. I'm not sure if I will however, I haven't performed in public for a long time and I don't feel as pretty as I once did. I would get in for free though; instead of paying $65.
Thanks for the music suggestions. Covenant and Zeromancer are good...do you like Assemblage 23?
..My favorite pics are in my "pic" tab, or click on the "See my favorite SG pics" button
(I'm just being a smartass)
Hey, when do you graduate? Doesn't that vice suck...It does nothing but hold me back!!!
Take care and be mischievous....
-A
[Edited on Feb 12, 2004 12:17AM]
so once again ive been alerted to a last minute party at my apartment. at least this one isnt shaping up to be another epic 60 person blowout. god, nothing beats getting hammered at your own house and passing out in your own bed without worrying about driving anywhere. tonight i plan on not knowing what happened... 
kittyinabox:
Hello,
I hope your inebriated state was fun and omitted from your mind.
Actually, I never made it to the Onyx either. Get this shit, I was on my way out of no-mans-land, when I came over a hill, suddenly hit a massive piece of ice, saw a figure of a man in the middle of the road (will explain in a min), swerved and slid right in to the ditch. Now, it didn't snow on Saturday; thus the Elbert county road people were not thinking of taking care of ice formed by blowing snow.
When I got out of my car, I found it to be in a nice wedge with the ditch. I also realized that the cars "going" in the opposite direction, about seven of them, were stuck on the ice; unable to get any traction to make it up the hill. Hence, the man in the middle of the road was trying to put chains on his car.
Someone called road patrol who came to shut down the road. I had to wait for the sanders to come before someone could pull me out, otherwise they would have had no traction.
Anyway, this all took 3 hours. And in the end I just didn't feel like driving into Denver. I told my friend to go without me since it was the last night of the Onyx, but she didn't. Oh-well, at least I have the pleasure of knowing that the last time I was there was a good time. Who knows the last night could of sucked and I'd be left with this bad last memory.
I should at least try the new Saturday night at Club 314 (old onyx). I heard that those nights are going to be sponsored by Afterdarkk entertainment (Christiaan Howard, if you know who he is). Or, I'm just going to end up at Rock Island for their goth night on Sunday....thats such a bad day of the week though...
Hope all is well,
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I hope your inebriated state was fun and omitted from your mind.
Actually, I never made it to the Onyx either. Get this shit, I was on my way out of no-mans-land, when I came over a hill, suddenly hit a massive piece of ice, saw a figure of a man in the middle of the road (will explain in a min), swerved and slid right in to the ditch. Now, it didn't snow on Saturday; thus the Elbert county road people were not thinking of taking care of ice formed by blowing snow.
When I got out of my car, I found it to be in a nice wedge with the ditch. I also realized that the cars "going" in the opposite direction, about seven of them, were stuck on the ice; unable to get any traction to make it up the hill. Hence, the man in the middle of the road was trying to put chains on his car.
Someone called road patrol who came to shut down the road. I had to wait for the sanders to come before someone could pull me out, otherwise they would have had no traction.
Anyway, this all took 3 hours. And in the end I just didn't feel like driving into Denver. I told my friend to go without me since it was the last night of the Onyx, but she didn't. Oh-well, at least I have the pleasure of knowing that the last time I was there was a good time. Who knows the last night could of sucked and I'd be left with this bad last memory.
I should at least try the new Saturday night at Club 314 (old onyx). I heard that those nights are going to be sponsored by Afterdarkk entertainment (Christiaan Howard, if you know who he is). Or, I'm just going to end up at Rock Island for their goth night on Sunday....thats such a bad day of the week though...
Hope all is well,
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kittyinabox:
Where are all your favorite pics?.....Mary has a new set!!!!! 
-- begin bitch session --
So I've reached the conclusion that i need to meet new people. And soon. I've finally realized that I've hit a point (a while ago) where things become too routine and life begins to grow mundane and stagnant. Plus, it doesn't help that I've been completely unmodivated to do anything besides watch TV and sleep. But, the really crappy part...
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So I've reached the conclusion that i need to meet new people. And soon. I've finally realized that I've hit a point (a while ago) where things become too routine and life begins to grow mundane and stagnant. Plus, it doesn't help that I've been completely unmodivated to do anything besides watch TV and sleep. But, the really crappy part...
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i got my car back finally!!! its been violated yes, its been abused yes, but its all fixed up and i got the 90k service.. runs like its new now its off to colfax to pimp myself so i can get some money to fill the hole i dug for myself. need lovin?
now its off to colfax to pimp myself so i can get some money to fill the hole i dug for myself. need lovin?
kittyinabox:
...make sure they pay you the proper price for your deeds!!!!!
Glad you are mobile again...Don't you love the way your car runs after it has been serviced? Alright, so my car only has 6K on it.....which means I have to count the free riding while it lasts.
Yeah, I have dreams where I am going places. I certanily am not going anywhere soon. I am trying to convince the astronomy world that I am worth something...according to them I'm not because of my looooww GRE scores...So, I have to kiss their asses.
But, besides my so-called professional side, life is going pretty smooth. So, I should be happy about that. I don't think I'll spice it up by discovering toaster sex...nothing about the toaster turns me on...maybe I should spend more time in my kitchen......nah..Ijust need to discover new people.
Enjoy the snow ...
-A
Glad you are mobile again...Don't you love the way your car runs after it has been serviced? Alright, so my car only has 6K on it.....which means I have to count the free riding while it lasts.
Yeah, I have dreams where I am going places. I certanily am not going anywhere soon. I am trying to convince the astronomy world that I am worth something...according to them I'm not because of my looooww GRE scores...So, I have to kiss their asses.
But, besides my so-called professional side, life is going pretty smooth. So, I should be happy about that. I don't think I'll spice it up by discovering toaster sex...nothing about the toaster turns me on...maybe I should spend more time in my kitchen......nah..Ijust need to discover new people.
Enjoy the snow ...
-A
ugh. im bummed out
that girl i was supposed to be seeing is a waste of my time for so many reasons, but none the less i did like her. oh well, theres plenty more out there. still doesnt make me feel better. i know what i have to do with my life and im not doing it. maybe with this monkey off my back...
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that girl i was supposed to be seeing is a waste of my time for so many reasons, but none the less i did like her. oh well, theres plenty more out there. still doesnt make me feel better. i know what i have to do with my life and im not doing it. maybe with this monkey off my back...
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kittyinabox:
Cheer up.. . At least you see all this now and not a ways down the road where you will end up kicking yourself. And it's true, flings seem to be far more draining than anything else.
The Onyx closes on the 7th. 
My Onyx buddy and I are going to be hitting that place up one of these saturdays. Can you believe it, I requested to have the last friday off from work, because fridays are the best night, and my boss went right ahead and scheuduled me to close! . Oh-well, I'll just have to put up with the strippers trying to force-sell me shots on Saturday.
Assure all your friends that All men look better in eyeliner...In fact, if I ruled the world, ALL men would wear eyeliner
. At least you see all this now and not a ways down the road where you will end up kicking yourself. And it's true, flings seem to be far more draining than anything else.
The Onyx closes on the 7th.
My Onyx buddy and I are going to be hitting that place up one of these saturdays. Can you believe it, I requested to have the last friday off from work, because fridays are the best night, and my boss went right ahead and scheuduled me to close! . Oh-well, I'll just have to put up with the strippers trying to force-sell me shots on Saturday.
Assure all your friends that All men look better in eyeliner...In fact, if I ruled the world, ALL men would wear eyeliner
Potential future(s) of my sex life:
a. become a monk
b. embrace my love for the cock and switch teams (VERY unlikely). i did say unlikely, right?
c. get a sex change and become a hooker on colfax. do i even need one?
d. apathy!!
e. learn from the mistakes of the past and become a better person.
yea... i think e is the best...
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a. become a monk
b. embrace my love for the cock and switch teams (VERY unlikely). i did say unlikely, right?
c. get a sex change and become a hooker on colfax. do i even need one?
d. apathy!!
e. learn from the mistakes of the past and become a better person.
yea... i think e is the best...
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kittyinabox:
hello,
Yeah, I went kind of silent there for a while.....I can't remember what I was doing, but I know it wasn't much.
I took that quiz at http://www.ptocheia.net/quizzes.html . According to some other quizes stupid people piss me off and my sexual perversion is toaster sex.........?
The sunday goth night at Rock Island is pretty good from what I have heard. Honestly, I only seem to go there for special events (fetish event, Colorado darks arts festival). But, I will may start going more often since the Onyx is closing down .
-A
[Edited on Jan 25, 2004 8:43PM]
Yeah, I went kind of silent there for a while.....I can't remember what I was doing, but I know it wasn't much.
I took that quiz at http://www.ptocheia.net/quizzes.html . According to some other quizes stupid people piss me off and my sexual perversion is toaster sex.........?
The sunday goth night at Rock Island is pretty good from what I have heard. Honestly, I only seem to go there for special events (fetish event, Colorado darks arts festival). But, I will may start going more often since the Onyx is closing down
.
-A
[Edited on Jan 25, 2004 8:43PM]
I'm borrowing my friends computer in boulder right now and a thousand people are trying to instant message them.....so I've got to go..
...I'll see what I can do after work this week....so far I have no plans for sunday...
-A