ironhalo

well, ive had one cigarette since monday. specifically on tuseday. yes, i am a bitch. but after that one i promptly threw away my lighter. the following day i had to work a full 8 hour shift (work is the one place i have yet to break my smoking habit). i broke down about 4 times? but each time something distracted me from indulging my addiction. lemme tell ya, it was pretty wierd. not that im complaining, being smoke freel this long is awesome. i feel so good.. its hard to describe. withdrawls sucked tho.

my girlie and i along with some of her friends went to a full moon party at a lounge in denver on wednesday. free card reading! i havent had my cards read in ages.. the card reader asked me if my relationship was somethign special (she said 'i dont normally ask this'). i responded negatively, and its the truth. my girlie and i are becoming more friends, and i think it may end up that way very soon. im cool with this. she taught me a tone about dating and people and most importantly about myself. cool enough, the cards also foreshadowed to a new girlie with the 'warm fuzzy feeling' included. we'll see what happens...

the point of this abnormally long entry for me is to state that for the first time since i got out of college i feel mentally 'awake' again. its the best feeling, more intense then when i was giong to college and cramming my brain. im working out 5 days a week, im losing weight and eating a lot better.

i feel like a new person, and most importantly i feel alive in a way that i havent felt in a very long time.