life can be so extremely confusing ya know? ive had the rare and extremely pleasant advantage of knowing what ive wanted to do with my life for quite some time now. i love art. im naturally good with computers. it would seem to make sense that i pursue a career in computer arts, correct? well, ive done just that. and im happy with my path thus far. but for the first time i have to really get down to the nitty gritty and make the REAL choice about what i want to do with my life. like the specifics. and i choke. its so strange being out of college. out of the 24 years of my life ive spent 20ish? in academia, whether it be nap time or a BFA thesis nightmare.. and now its all done. what the hell am i supposed to do? moving to cali is a good bet. i just need to save the money to get there. no drinking it away! (speaking of which, i apologize for any erratic comments). what im trying to say is that for the first time in my life i'm truely uncertain of what will happen tommorow. and for the first time im not in control, and its really tripping me out. but, perhaps the change of pace is good for me.. something to force me to change... what will tommorow bring?
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I think your doing fine. The best thing is that you still know what love. Don't put that off to try to get back on track! And at least you are acting now. Some people spend way too much time thinking about what they would love to do and never act on it.
-A
[Edited on Apr 03, 2005 12:19PM]