ironhalo

its 330 am. for the first time in a very long time i can sit back and relax. its odd that i feel guilty about relaxing like this. i've been going strong for so long now that i've sort of gotten used to this always on the go mentality. tommorow i can start catching up on my life. 1st priority is get a fucking hiarcut among many other things.

saturday i graduate from college. its relieving and scary at the same time. i dont think i could bear another semester at college if i wanted to. im scared of floundering when im out.. its odd.. i keep hoping fate has these huge plans for me, but i think the balls in my court. i think part of this is not having a girlfriend again. im thrilled im single again.. my last ex just didnt cut it. theres some things that i just miss about having a girlfriend, parts of it make me feel complete i guess. eh, its nice being on the market again tho. i get to see my friends more often and spend time with myself.. something i havent been able to do in a long long time. speaking of things i dont do much.. im going to sleep