Wednesday Mar 15, 2006

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i could bitch and moan about so many things right now, but im just going to choose not to. no one likes to hear a person complain right? i just have to make sure i dont let all the bullshit flying around me get me down. i really think i need to start meditating and get some plans formulated.

on the plus side im doing a tone better emotinally about the loss of an old friend.. ill miss that kid but im finally at peace with what happened. i feel like i have the answers i needed i guess. shocking how someone you havent talked to in 2 years can still play such a role in death eh?

im going to the gdc in san jose in a week now. fucking hell, time flew by. im gonna go there and drop some resumes in peoples boxes and get a feel for what i should have learned in school while i was going. unfortunately and fortunately ill be going back now, something i didnt want to do... but im not marketable. plain and simple. i can rot in costco or i can make someting out of myself. the times coming when i need to man up or decide to become a failure. ohh so dramatic... whatever
suzieq20:
its ok i complain all the time smile well i hope u find something that works out for you
constellationsix:
Going through lots of shit is always beneficial. The more bullshit life throws at you, the easier it gets to handle. Pretty soon you'll be a lot happier, and you can laugh at the drama queens who pound out emotional blogs about unreturned phone calls and bad hair days.

You can also look back at things like, "Hey, I'm a more mature person now!" and then comment on and give advice to complete strangers.

In all seriousness, sorry about the loss, and trust me, you'll continue feeling better as time goes on.

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