today i think im going to have to put an end to this childish and dramatic sitauton im in. im supposed to see a movie with the girl in question, and if she hasnt made up her mind im going to do it for her and just cut it off. i may regret it, i may feel bad for it. but its what i feel...
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ever have the feeling that no matter what you do youre going to get fucked? like really hard? because its happened in the past itll happen again kinda crap? ive learned that i have severe trust issues with people, especially women that im romantically interested in. sounds crazy, but i just figured it out. it feels good to realize your own imperfections like that. it...
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kittyinabox:
Hello,
Yeah, it has been a while. I've been busy with work and whatnot...
Try not to stress too much.
Yeah, it has been a while. I've been busy with work and whatnot...
Try not to stress too much.
kittyinabox:
Hello,
I decided to join the "Dating Sucks" board today and saw your post.
I'm sorry things aren't working out better for you...really.
Never let someone put your heart in a jar and left on a shelf to save for later........that's just how I feel.....because I know it hurts.
Take care,
Audra
I decided to join the "Dating Sucks" board today and saw your post.
I'm sorry things aren't working out better for you...really.
Never let someone put your heart in a jar and left on a shelf to save for later........that's just how I feel.....because I know it hurts.
Take care,
Audra
school continues to whoop my ass. im not studying enough.. i need summer time to come already..! i need goof off time with no homework to worry about, just me, my friends and maya. stuff i want to do..! i graduate in december.. its official. scary scary crap, but im looking foward to it in a starnge way. in some ways im not ready for...
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so ive been seeing this girl for like 2 weeksish now.. shes nice.. theres a hope that it might go somewhere. i think im finally getting this relationship stuff figured out. of course now that i say this itll blow up like all the others do.
my ancient ex girlfriend is supposed to visit in like 2 weeks.. that should be interesting, espeically now that...
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my ancient ex girlfriend is supposed to visit in like 2 weeks.. that should be interesting, espeically now that...
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schools been kicking my butt lately. i feel violated in that 'not so fresh' way. i suppose its good too.. its making me really sit my ass down and do work. i think abusing aterol on occasion whacks my brain back on track or something... moderation is the key...
i had the wierdest dream a couple days ago.. my mom was encouraging me to try...
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i had the wierdest dream a couple days ago.. my mom was encouraging me to try...
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kittyinabox:
....Pho 79.....is that a restaurant? or some estranged store that will sell me weird herbs?.....I could use some good bun though.......Vietnamese is my favorite and I haven't found a good place to go since I moved back from Hawaii.
....Sounds like school is cranking along for you. Do what you can to stay on track, short of harming yourself.
...Stop clubbing???.....NEVER!!!....I need to start wearing earplugs though.......I actually haven't gone since I've gotten sick.
-A
....Sounds like school is cranking along for you. Do what you can to stay on track, short of harming yourself.
...Stop clubbing???.....NEVER!!!....I need to start wearing earplugs though.......I actually haven't gone since I've gotten sick.
-A
so someone broke into my little bro's car last night. what the fuck is going on in this town?? my roomate found a note on his car from a witness saying someone tryed for his car too.. but his alarm saved his butt. whats next?? the 4 elephants of the apocalypse? or was it horsemen..
i got my new camera lens today too.. its not...
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i got my new camera lens today too.. its not...
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It's sunday night. I got off work and found myself in a comatose sleep. People called me, I don't remember responding with coherant speech. Tommorow I have to re-cast the mold that I've found myself in. It sounds wierd to say, but I feel as if this is the end of something in my life, and tommorow will be a new day in more than...
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so its 2 am on a friday night. im at home doing homework. i realized that the file ive been working on is really jacked up and im going to basically have to start over from square one. this didnt make me feel much better.. now im really behind in school. this sucks. i want to shoot myself. i dont know what im doing anymore....
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kittyinabox:
....to me, you sound like your doing fine.......from your early words....you sound like me last year at this same time when I was trying to get my honors dissertation done......so let me say: don't be like me and let anxiety get the best of you......it will make you bleed more than you need to.........and from the determination you've just displayed, you wont fail....
.....yeah.....ill be going to goth night for a long time....(while, when im not working).........i try to make it out whenever i can.......so when your up for it.....let me know...........or if you feel like getting coffee again.
-A
.....yeah.....ill be going to goth night for a long time....(while, when im not working).........i try to make it out whenever i can.......so when your up for it.....let me know...........or if you feel like getting coffee again.
-A
last night was surprisingly uneventful. we got to the party way too late.. circa midnight. i ended up being the DD because every cop on earth was out that night, and it was my turn anyway. and yet i felt aweful this morning when i got up! and i had barely any alcohol last night!! i think constantly staying up to 5 am is really...
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kittyinabox:
...well, i hope you had a good time anyway 
...sometimes vacations can be more exhausting than our regular work life........because all of a sudden you have the time to do all the "life" you have been putting off......but that also takes up a lot of time.........still, have fun....just pace yourself...
-A
...sometimes vacations can be more exhausting than our regular work life........because all of a sudden you have the time to do all the "life" you have been putting off......but that also takes up a lot of time.........still, have fun....just pace yourself...
-A
spring break is in full effect. yesterday i got a nice 11 hours of sleep... that was so very nice. went house hunting today.. to no avail. now its homework time and tommorow.. oh yes.. tommorow will be the weekend rolled into one crazy irish night. should be very entertaining..
kittyinabox:
....hello.......hope you had a good St. Patty's day......and drank plenty of H20 before going to sleep...
holy crap. Histor of Digital Media can kiss my ass!! forgetting about mid terms is a bad idea, especialy in such a subjective class. besides, the questions were really wierd and technology hasn't even provided answers to them in some cases. if anyone cares, no one has passed the turning machine test, and no one as made a true universal machine. and i do want...
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kittyinabox:
....turning machine test???? as in a finite-state machine...whats a quadratic computer???....perhaps you could update me on the current progress of quantum computers...........feel free to smack me for bring up your test.....perhaps i should take another drink.....
...are you moving or something??????
Hey...you missed a good time last night.....but, nights like that always repeat....give me a call sometime.
-A
...are you moving or something??????
Hey...you missed a good time last night.....but, nights like that always repeat....give me a call sometime.
-A
spring break is here!! im looking foward to the time off.. should be really nice to have some down time, even if the amount is in question. theres a big japanese open house tommorow. lots of really nice antiques are being sold in some gallery in boulder. my mom wants me to go with her, but i have to work. that sucks! they have some...
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kittyinabox:
yeah....I had a good time at netherworld....let me know if you want to go again.....though, I sorry if your friends were disapointed in me not being some freeky, slezzy, mid-fortys man.......ok...so there's always some possibility that i'm freeky......but, at least im not some slezzy 45 year old man..
Fear Factory could be cool....i'll have to keep that date open from work.....its always hard to get specific dates off because of our work schuedules being so random...but, it's far enough away that should be able to work it out.....
ill let you know if i end up going out sunday night....i'll most likely be going to Rock Island....my friends girlfriend usually runs that goth night there on sunday nights.....however, i haven't heard is she is doing it this sunday.......if not.....the church (the basement) has a good goth night on sunday.........I will also be checking the goth night out this coming up wednesday at the new "onyx"...or whatever the new club is called.....im really hoping its good....either way...ill call you to see if your interested...............
have a good weekend.....be sure you rest a bit on your break...
Fear Factory could be cool....i'll have to keep that date open from work.....its always hard to get specific dates off because of our work schuedules being so random...but, it's far enough away that should be able to work it out.....
ill let you know if i end up going out sunday night....i'll most likely be going to Rock Island....my friends girlfriend usually runs that goth night there on sunday nights.....however, i haven't heard is she is doing it this sunday.......if not.....the church (the basement) has a good goth night on sunday.........I will also be checking the goth night out this coming up wednesday at the new "onyx"...or whatever the new club is called.....im really hoping its good....either way...ill call you to see if your interested...............
have a good weekend.....be sure you rest a bit on your break...