Well...she doesn't want to be in a relationship; she is the one that suggested it. I want her. Not just her body but all of her. It will never be. I will not be able to trust her again. FB still says we are in a relationship. As long as that is up I will maintain hope, I will continue to play the role of BF. She is so busy though, I will honestly probably never see her again. fuck. Nobody reads this anyway.
She is sweet, she is nice, she is fun, she is funny and intelligent. She is the most beautiful girl I have ever met. She is just out of reach. She has always been just out of reach. I have said everything I can to try and win her, to try and get her to just chill until life is a little less hectic. I can't do anymore. It's all in her hands now.
I don't like being powerless. God, I want her. She makes me physically uneasy being around her; I have a physical reaction in my very core. I have never felt that before. I'm fucked.
She is sweet, she is nice, she is fun, she is funny and intelligent. She is the most beautiful girl I have ever met. She is just out of reach. She has always been just out of reach. I have said everything I can to try and win her, to try and get her to just chill until life is a little less hectic. I can't do anymore. It's all in her hands now.
I don't like being powerless. God, I want her. She makes me physically uneasy being around her; I have a physical reaction in my very core. I have never felt that before. I'm fucked.
twistedkittenfur:
Oh thanks, I didn't know that. I'm going to have to try that. because I can't live with out MW3 right now....unless...I acquire mass affect3 hmmm lol 
dance_zanky:
Don't beat yourself up so much, things will work out, maybe she just needs a little space try smiling and NOT worrying so much about monogamy.