inoutinout

im FUCKED and still in vegas...

alright GOD did it to me again. at this point i do believe there is a god.. cause live cant keep fuckin stabing u in the back if there wasnt someone there laughing about all of it. it would be sad if there wasn't.

i thought i was actrally getting out of vegas.. but again NO FUCKING WAY fate says... again.. im soo tired of this.. i cant understand... i just want out of this fuckin state... i just hate it here.. i want to be happy and i want to like myself and where i em.. and my friends... but here i cant do that.. and here i dont want to be... but im stuck here.. and i dont know what to do..

i havent cut myself in awhile and i dont want to start too.. but it sounds like such a good idea.. i dont want to fall back into things that are hurtful tomyself.. but its hard when im already hurting... i just want to be happy...