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"Avaste...I feel like being negative today".

Have the day off. w00t. Who fucking cares because it's not like i'm going to do anything productive...even though I should. I need to:
x: find a house.
a) move into it
b) be happy
x: Make jeff happy
a) thats impossible
b) he has to help himself
c) just push him along with his music career.
x: Get a puppy and love it because for some reason I have this yearning to nurture and love something...anything...and I would never ever want to have babies
a) Dogs are expensive.
b) I dont have a house for a dog to live in.
c) They dont stay puppies forever.
x: I want to get more ink!!!!
a) It costs money, which I dont have.
1. But when I do have it I cant frivolously spend it on body modification.
b) There are no decent tattoo parlors in pensuckola.
1. So, I would have to drive to new orleans or atlanta or orlando or another surrounding larger city...which in turn would cost even more money that I dont even have.
x: I want to have a one-nite stand with a beautiful girl.
a) Fantasies have to happen. You cant force them. Or else you get some Jerry Springer type shit going on.
b) Goddamn STD's. Always fucking up the party.
x: I want more testimonials.
x: I need to work on loving myself more and trying to make my life something worth living.
a) I need to back down off the constan recreational drug use.
b) I have to realize who are my friends and who are my enemies.
c) I need to realize my weaknesses and make them my strengths.
1. Which is a lot harder than it seems...
d) I need to stop being so fucking lazy.
x: I need to get in touch with old friends.

Blargh! Whatever...I just want to hurry up and get into my own house again. Preferrably downtown. Where I can decorate how I want, walk around naked and eat canneloni, sit on the soft couches with my kitties and play tekken tag and watch adult swim + anime porn. Ignore everyone and try to make Fantasy's life better. [oh,,,fantasy-thats me. I have a dirty hippie name. Blame my dad].
I'm going to go clean my room.