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FEBRUARY 14, 2005!!! VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!!! I will update my page later! Right now I have to go get ready to go out. The kids mother is being a super bitch, making TJ out to be a major asshole (never doing anything he says..which is not true..but she is making him out to be that way..) so naturally she is demanding that he take all three kids tonight so she can go out..I told him no way in HELL! I have sacrificed the past two valentine's days in a row for that bitch, and this year is MINE damn it! Of course, then we compromised and Vanny and I are going to go out when he gets off of work, and then she is going to meet us after we eat at Books-A-Million with the kids so she and her new boyfriend can go out...she always manages to have a boyfriend at this time of year for some reason..a new one every year..but a boyfrined none the less...it amazes me really..I wish she would not have one just once so we wouldn't have to worry about it...but I am going to have Vanny turn his cell phone off while we eat so she doesn't call in the middle of our meal and fuck everything up....and we are going to take our time and enjoy ourselves..and have dessert too...and when we are ready to leave, we will...I mean, the fact that we are getting the kids on a night that is HER night to have them is sacrifice enough I think...that schedule we set up...she's now saying she didn't agree to ANY of it..that she wanted to look it over first and make adjustments...well I sure as hell hope she hurries the HELL up because I need to know what the fucking schedule is. I think I am going to tell Vanny to tell her she needs to have the adjustments ready this week sometime so they can sit down and see if that will work and be fair to everyone involved. Okay...and I will update about my fabulous and fun filled weekend when I get back tonight!! Kisses everyone!!!



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I just realized today that I don't really like super skiny girls. It doesn't matter what pose they put themselves into, all I see is bones sticking out! lol And to me that's just not very attractive. I like a woman with nice curves..something to grab onto..ya know? I"m sure I've come to this revelation before, but it just became very apparent to me today.

On a different note, I got a forward today..didn't read the whole thing because it got boring after a while, but this one stuck out to me...I've had this before, and I was wondering if anyone else had ever experienced it..and what your story is...

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

I had a high school sweetheart for 2.5 years. I LOVED this guy. He was mister personality..always had to be the center of attention..and everyone loved him. He was the kind of guy that would bring his choir friends to my english class to have them singing in the background while he got down on one knee and recited a poem to me about how beautiful I was..in front of EVERYONE! lol He was the kind of guy that would stand up on a chair at Waffle House and serenade me in front of the entire restaurant on my birthday! Yes, he did these things people...he was a year older than me..we had started dating when I was 16, a sophomore in high school. When I got to college, I was sooooo excited because we had spent the last year in a long distance relationship. I was finally going to be able to spend time with him every day again! He broke up with me that first week! OH god people it was horrible! I saw him in the hallways...in fine arts events...I was actually going to try out for the small traveling choir group, but never did because he was in it and I felt it would be too awkward..actually..that pretty much put an end go my singing days...day after day after day..seeing him making himself known to everyone, just like he always had..and knowing he used to be mine..watching him with other girls..watching him serenade them in the lunch room..my heart was torn in two...that was definitley the hardest break-up ever....in a place where I had no friends or family...being totally alone in my despair...losing my first true love.....

Oh, and if you want to know why he broke up with me...we were going to a Christian University...and I was a bad influence on him..hehehe..I can't help it people..I'm just bad! Anyway, he was aspiring to be a youth pastor, and I was getting him all hot and heavy in the back seat of my car..so there ya have it...is that sad or what? Would you believe we never actually had sex though..neither of us were virgins..but in all that time, we never went beyond foreplay...gee....and he was well hung too damn it!

Okay, it is 4:00am and I am rolling my ASS off..and I am the only one awake too...I took the same amount as everyone else..but they are all passed out now..this ALWAYS happens to me...so now I need to meet some people who roll as long as I do damn it! lol OMG and I am sooooooooooo fucking horny I can hardly stand it..and the sex swing is all up and not in use...kind of hard to use by yourself ya know....we did have some good adult fun before everyone passed out though..I just want to know why I'm always the last one standing...I mean..this is normal for me people...every time..it's just weird

Looky, looky!! lol


Well, I went outside to take some pics..well, all I got was one before I literally froze my naked ass off...so sorry..but here it is! lol