i had things to say. i had a story to tell. i had words written down to transpose onto the internet. but i guess that all can wait for a epic blog day. for now, well....
the more and more i interact with things of the past, the more i realize that my past truly is behind me.
i realize that hardly anyone reads these... Read More
upon writing this, i am now three weeks sober. let me clarify, im not two weeks alcohol free, i see no reason yet to quit entirely, and hope i never will face the time where i would have to. so long as i can maintain some sort level of control over this. nevertheless, this sobriety has allowed me to, once again, open up my eyes.... Read More
sabbatical: noun:
1. an extended period of leave from ones customary routines, especially for rest, to acquire new skills, etc.
2. a time period of a length yet undetermined by me to attempt to adapt to an ever changing life, to succeed in a rapid self growth of the mind, body, and spirit.
i have this obsession with this song recently. the part where he says "terrified child, wont you move away, you fucking tornado" his voice is just... perfect. the ways i always wished to sound, right there. maybe ill take lessons again when i get out of school
a statement of ignorance made, hopefully, out of momentary passion. brought my memories back, made me really dig deep for what it took for me to quit my old drug addiction.
luckily though, it has brought light onto another situation i had been battling for some time. whereas i would usually just unhinge and go off, i bit my lip and kept to myself, avoiding further confrontation. definitely showing myself i have come to control my anger better than previously. ive learned to not retaliate out of temporary anger.
Correct on all accounts:
a.] The initial statement was very ignorant made in a tense situation. From an emotional place.
b.] You could have fired back and it could've snowballed and been all bad. .. but instead, you were a bigger person/
c.] As a result, everything immediately settled and nothing happened .. and I agree. It is obvious that you are growing. I apologize, and thank you for not biting back.
heres a song i wrote long LONG ago. i think it was one of my better ones. maybe ill start back up again.
i miss your smile, the way you taste
i close my eyes and cant forget your face
the tears have dried the storm has cleared
but i still see a paled soul
when i look at the mirror
