Cop provisions feed my addictions mistakes I made then
I opened up the holes and they crawled in,
Now when it's time for the feed they won't let me forget,
They ride upon my back and they'll fuck me with their need,
My invisible enemies all my monkeys
Their coming they're coming their coming they're coming to take me
away.
Allow what's done to preach new insight to your life.
Hindsight is perfect vision.
The past is easiest to see.
Clear a path, Stand aside.
We're carrying the torch now,
There's no stopping us.
You think you're everything to everyone.
Go... Read More
Technically? Like a million years ago. I finished it in a week or two. But I'm waiting on a participation grade, since I work every time I can do the stupid webinar.
well, hello memorial day. to first start this one off, id like to say that, though i appreciate it, this is not a day to thank the soldiers you know. you dont thank a soldier for their service on memorial day, thats veterns day. today is to commemorate the fallen.
so moving on.... yesterday to now.... received a couple calls from people, very unexpected, very... Read More
sitting outside on my porch, watching the pond water, imagining all the peace and tranquility below the surface. the fish and the turtles, a meter or so below the rippling surface. not ignorant to the present situation occurring above them, just impervious to it. shielded by the very same thing they cannot escape from. their world, hockey rink sized, one meter deep. so small, so... Read More
I mean, to be honest, in that situation .. it doesn't matter a single bit if she's "keeping it friendly" which she's probably not if you have to question it [and you know I'm right] -- because it's all on you [ie: takes two to tango, etc]. You're the one who keeps it there. You're the one who keeps her at bay. You can keep talking to her or not [no harm there] -- you can also keep things from progressing. Or you could allow them to .. and create a really fucked up situation.
i have always admired people in ways most dont understand. i dont admire marilyn manson for his music, but i like it. i dont admire chuck palahniuk for his writing, though i love it. i dont admire maynard james keenan for his words, though i find myself singing them constantly, be it verbally or mentally. i do admire these people for their views on the... Read More
I wasn't saying we had to be best friends. I was just saying that, yeah, it had been long enough and I think we're both over any clawing-at-the-throat temptation. And I was curious if there would come a point where we would be decent. I know we both probably have a corner in our minds where we have shit to say, but do you think we can ignore that and be cool?
life teeters on a scale of good and bad. both sides rise and fall interchangeably, each having its own turn in the dirt. the one that kicks the hardest spends the most time airborne, while the other looks up the board, watching as the other has its fun giggling and laughing. it takes a strong kick to get the balance to reverse, but one never... Read More
so yeah, ive been gone for a few days, i know this.
learning to tame myself and my mind, keep things under a reasonable level of control.
been going out a bit more.... saw august burns red and some other bands on thursday, and i was drunk and bruised and beaten.... basically, it was a badass night!
im moving today and tomorrow, living in a... Read More
the mind has been in a state on constant siege. im stuck trying to defend my choices and values from attackers of an unknown source. its not depressing by any means, just annoying. these assaulting thoughts are defending people and ideas that are not deserving of defense. i sort it all out through the violence of my video games, allowing my subconscious to clean up... Read More
i already had a blog covering the positive reinforcement i have been receiving over the past while, but last night a conversation started that has had me thinking a bit all day. i need to speak of it, if only for the calming conclusion of the discussion to be shared.
last night was a night out i hadnt done in awhile. me and a fun... Read More
... Thank you so much for your commet on my set i!!! I really appreciate it!!!kiss pretty day 