you move like I want to
to see like your eyes do
we are downstairs where
no one can see
new life break away
tonight I feel like more
tonight I
you make the water warm
you taste foreign
and I know you can see
the cord break away
cause... Read More
i have spent a lot of time in thought, trying to figure out how i should handle all the drama i was facing. i decided my best course of action in how to end it, was to get rid of all of it. i dropped 200 on... Read More
Fuck yeah, man... I'm not as strong as you, though. Although there is a lot I wish I could drop, I've been hearing your first song in my head forever...
i wrote a lot earlier, about what i was about to do. but i did it before i could post about it, so i guess its all irrelevant. point is.....
well....
sg land, i have a question..... if the person you love wants to be friends, but its hurts you to see them NOT with you, if you love them enough that they drive your... Read More
this is the world i live in. a world of constant twists and turns, and rarely are any of them really that great. i have spent a lot of time looking deep into the details of my environment, of my world. looking at the beauty and all the previously unseen happiness that lie within. at the same time, im trying to look at it all... Read More
so fuck editing. no one wants to hear my words tonight, so be it, ill still say them, just venting, of course.
liz: theres nothing here, and not just because you used to be with my best friend, i just dont feel for you that way, something i have told you a number of times. so drop it, and let things just fucking be.
another attack today. been a few months since my last one. well, about a month. had to leave school early. going to try to calm my mind for a bit.
EDIT:
hours later.... attack didnt end, just changed forms before me. ill sit around tonight and drink, be alone for the night, i guess alone is the best thing for now.
gosh, hope it wasn't anything serious?? Not sure what kind of attack you mean, anxiety or serious health one. Either way, hope your ok, must have been really scary.
Dreams of earthquakes
Dreams of hurricanes
Dreams of pouring rain
Dreams of tidal waves...to wash us all away
Dreams of guns blazed
Dreams of fire rage
Dreams of swollen graves
Dreams of hollow pain
All gone
No more fallen
No more enemy
No more casuality
No more dream
it seems as though im constantly finding more and more sources that stretch my mind. i wouldnt state that its their views, maybe its their researching habits. im drawn closer and closer to these people not because of what they believe, but rather how they go about making their decision. looking into the core, rather than just the notion. it is only when we view... Read More
If you really wanna "talk" -- I'll probably write you privately on this one. I think people get confused when they "dislike politics," versus people that "like politics." Quickly I'll say, that the way things are run on a large scale obviously sucks and very rarely [it probably looks like never (but sometimes)] works the way it's supposed to .. But that scale is not what people see and say they like. When I like politics, I like the ideals and what people are trying for. I like what it's supposed to be, and I like the way the broken system is trying in spite of itself to move forward. Is it? Not much, but all of the fighting is so vicious because everyone is trying to move so strongly in some direction and everyone's so angry because they're trying to pull in whatever direction and what I am -interested- in is the legality of it all, the struggle. Do I love the actual fighting and the dirt of it? The power struggle -- do I love it in a -positive- way? No. I am -interested- in it, it intrigues me. I am interested in it the way I would be interested in .. wreckage on the side of the highway, the way I'd want to watch a body be put back together on an operating table. It's bloody, it's confusing. There's adrenaline and there's a chance for something really good to happen -- it really matters, real things are at stake. So people who -dislike- politics because they think it's stupid and close-minded? I think -that's- close-minded, because they're looking at the wrong parts of it, and not seeing what those people are attempting .. they're trying to stop the gears from turning, rather than seeing how they can get them to turn more effectively in the direction they want.
Okay, I was going to write you privately later and apparently I just wrote .. soooo. Nevermind.
