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illuminatus

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Monday Oct 18, 2010

Oct 18, 2010
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I'm completely amazed this shit is still functioning. I don't recall renewing my subscription this time last year. Oh well.

Since I'm here, I might as well state that I am doing exceptionally well, as my forward momentum is recently unwaivering. I do fight urges to lash out and vent intense fights built up within me, but I'm slowly letting those stresses out in non volatile ways, maintaining a level of dignity.

Since I ended my activity on this site, I have built myself up so much better, and all my pains over the past year are finally gone. Well, gone enough that I am no longer bothered by them, even the nightmares that once kept me up at night are now nothing less than dreams of the past, waking no longer in a claustrophobic anxiety attack, rather just waking me up, and that's only sometimes.

I guess I'll leave with a brief message of inspiration. There is nothing we as individuals cannot make it through with the appropriate amount of will power. It takes courage to identify a problem within ourselves, and strength to face it, endurance to push through. The end result, well, it makes you laugh at what you were, turn away, and leave with your shoulders high.

Winter approaches. The beginning and end of each year. The snow begs for new footprints, and I am excited to embed mine into it.
chrysis:
Fuck it.

I know you don't use this. And we'll just fight in two months and block each other.

But I friend requested you. Whatever. It's what we do. ;]
Dec 26, 2010

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