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Thursday Feb 11, 2010

Feb 11, 2010
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soooooo i guess it has been a bit of awhile
a lot has happened in the past while
first.....
my mother has been in a constant struggle to gain custody of my little siblings from their pinche pendejo of a father. the man that abused me and abused my mother, who made my mother bankrupt. this asshole who has plaqued our lives for two decades. and now we as a family started rising against him. he embarrassed my mother in front of my brother. basically he got into a fight with his father and ran away from home. scared and alone, he called my mother, who picked him up from the nearby gas station. two hours later, his father showed up with cops threatening to arrest my mother if she didnt have my brother leave. he did so crying, but volunteered for my mothers sake. come to find out, the police dont have the jurisdiction to do any of that, the culera had his cop buddy play it off. and this was over the summer. i have been summoned to court in pa to testify for my mother.
fast forward to now. mom has won custody. she is buying her first house this month. and the joy in her voice is everything i have wished. my mother wants nothing more than to be there for her kids. and now she finally has it. she finally has her own house. she has finally bounced back from the asshole.
i am going to see her next month, in her new house. my sister is going too, so mom will have all her kids together again. its something that even warms my heart very much.
i am also bringing someone else up there......
which brings me to the next topic.....
my life has become something so much different. from the army life of spendin my time goofing off with friends, hittin up the club, gettin drunk, and meeting people.... sometimes in the very personal ways. and now i am here in houston. i have a couple friends, but we only hang out at school really. well i had a couple over for new years, but thats about it. i still go out to the clubs, but i just go to chill and have a couple beers. dont get anyones numbers or pick anyone up. just make a couple friends.
wasnt really that warming, but at least i am doing good in school. setting up my future. and a bit ago i decided that i was not in the right place to be involved with anyone. and i certainly gave up on anything over the internet. not going through that shit again.
BUT
just as illy fashion, my rules arent always followed to the tee.
a few months ago i started an innocent friendship with someone through this fine website. spent the nights chattin away via blog comments. small mindless, entertaining conversations about all kinds of things. then came the text conversations. then finally we upgraded to webcam chatting. and yeah, kept telling myself that we would remain just good friends.
during this time period, she had another friend in san antonio, who baught her a plane ticket to see him. sure i was jealous, but i thought that it was for the better, ya know? follow my rules, stay single, not spend my time with my school.
then that thing fell through for her. dude was a weird man. but she had these tickets to texas, and were good friends.... and, well, i do like her... so yeah, lets see if we cant hang out for a bit.
so by the time the trip came close, we had already become very close.
and then the time came.
and the week we spent together was.... well, perfect.
i havent felt so comfortable in someones arms before. night time sleeping was easier than it has ever been. someone like this in my arms, so calming and soothing. not to mention the sex was....well, ill just say if it was on film, itd be worth some money lol
so much for both of my new rules.
and now she sits in her house, up north, and all i can think about is the next time we are together.
which, for those paying attention, will be next month. thats right, im already bringing her to see the family. can anyone guess how serious my feelings are for this one?
so for now, i sit here, live my usual days, go to school.... yet stare at my phone all day... either cycling through the pictures of her or waiting for a message from her.
well, its now my time for school.... and.... waiting for her..... soooooo
ill talk to yall later....
oh
and i am in fact still around, so dont be too much of a stranger
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jaxy:
I'm happy your momma is happy.
And I'm happy you broke your rules. tongue
Feb 11, 2010
chrysis:


SPOILERS! (Click to view)
Alright, that's it, I've had enough, I'm on my way to you
It's nauseating and I'm sick of waiting
For all these pointless calls to go through

But no, I'm not a skeptic anymore
At last I see what all of this ridiculous hard work is for
The moisture in the air is begging for release
And the memory of your stare is raining down on me

Hypothetically, if you were Point A
And theoretically if I was Point B,
We would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point that could overcome anything

Constantly, you're working through the mileage in my head
Oh, I'm calculating, yes I'm sick of waiting
How many hours until I reach your bed?

But no, I'm not a skeptic anymore
At last I see what all of this ridiculous hard work is for
The moisture in the air is begging for release
And the memory of your stare is raining down on me

Hypothetically, if you were Point A
And theoretically, if I was Point B,
We would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point
That could overcome anything

My faith in you could move these mountains I am driving through
It's times like these when I wish I could teleport to you
'cause then we wouldn't have an issue
We're cleverly, strategically
Challenging our fright and insecurities,
And never seem to want to leave

Hypothetically, if you were Point A
And theoretically, if I was Point B,
We would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point
That could overcome anything

Yeah, we would be, we would be frantically melting
Into one massive point
That could overcome anything

Feb 24, 2010

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