I have not slept for many days
Yet I have dreamt of the unseen
Now I have found this place in myself
I have dreamt of no control
And then I will see what the hate it can take
I will stand up to see what I really can be
I'll cry if I need to but I'll proceed to
A... Read More
you know what, completely fuck twitter. too damn complicated with the blogging.
anyways, someone inquired into my history. heres the background story on how this came about. my good friend, jim, is a rather intriguing and very humorous individual. former marine, has that slightly crazy side to him thats common among marines. anyways, he told me an old friend got in contact with him recently,... Read More
so its been a bit. i have written still in my notebook, one thing being a story about waking in a panic reaching for a weapon im so used to sleeping with, but ill just let it stay there. dont need it up.
recently, my sleeping troubles, are no longer troubles. the faces of my affliction have disappeared for now. i have been falling asleep... Read More
Play dead again. It just might stop before the end.
If I pretend you may not see the pain I'm in.
So close to me, can't tell what I'm supposed to be.
Don't stop to breathe, can't bear to think what you might see.
This tourniquet, these blessed hands around my head
So I can keep from...
Someone told me once
that there's a right and wrong
punishment was cure
to those who dare to cross the line.
But it must not be true
for jerk-offs just like you.
Maybe it takes longer to catch a total asshole.
but I'm tired of waiting.
Someone told me once
that there's a right and wrong,... Read More
i had things to say. i had a story to tell. i had words written down to transpose onto the internet. but i guess that all can wait for a epic blog day. for now, well....
the more and more i interact with things of the past, the more i realize that my past truly is behind me.
i realize that hardly anyone reads these... Read More
upon writing this, i am now three weeks sober. let me clarify, im not two weeks alcohol free, i see no reason yet to quit entirely, and hope i never will face the time where i would have to. so long as i can maintain some sort level of control over this. nevertheless, this sobriety has allowed me to, once again, open up my eyes.... Read More
