Every time I go to blog my 2 year old sits on my arm. I can type with one hand but not nearly as fast or well.
So, when I working at rehabilitating the juveniles I had a coworker. Miss K was pretty awesome. She was smart, adventurous, enjoyed sex and was a bit of a wild girl. My wife liked her, but there was...
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So, when I working at rehabilitating the juveniles I had a coworker. Miss K was pretty awesome. She was smart, adventurous, enjoyed sex and was a bit of a wild girl. My wife liked her, but there was...
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Firstly, getting ninja kicked in the face by a platypus would suck, poisoned spurs and all. CURSE YOU PERRY THE PLATYPUS!!!
I've been trying to reorganize and prioritize my life, trying to figure out what kind of life I want to lead. For the last 7 years It's been pretty steady, but things have shifted since 2010 started. I've been contemplating everything from my spirituality...
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I've been trying to reorganize and prioritize my life, trying to figure out what kind of life I want to lead. For the last 7 years It's been pretty steady, but things have shifted since 2010 started. I've been contemplating everything from my spirituality...
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clio:
thanks for the sweet compliment 
drusylla:
Communication with my primary partner has always been my #1 thing-especially when we started swinging yrs ago. We had to relearn how to communicate all over again. It was hard work but dammit we pride ourselves on mastering it. We rarely argue because of it.
So, of course, its something I would carry over in a poly relationship. This is the bf's first relationship ever and I have to learn a different aspect of communication. I am the type of person, though, that I will talk the issues to death til everything is resolved. I'm a stickler that way
I don't think I'm that good of a poly role model. The 3 of us do have a lot to learn and a lot to work on still.
So, of course, its something I would carry over in a poly relationship. This is the bf's first relationship ever and I have to learn a different aspect of communication. I am the type of person, though, that I will talk the issues to death til everything is resolved. I'm a stickler that way
I don't think I'm that good of a poly role model. The 3 of us do have a lot to learn and a lot to work on still.
I have to say that since my wife died, doing randomly nice things for people has made me a bit happy. It's been nice to be able to get people presents off their wish list, or donate to their charities. I've been doing it as a sort of way to honor my wife, because she loved helping people so much. I don't feel like I've...
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giastrange:
thank u for ur comment, i think i be askin u for advice regarding my kid!! hope u are doing well hon xx
mrswindupbird:
I just read most of your blog entries and was happy to see that things seem to be improving for you as far as finding a few happier days here or there. I have no advice on these matters, but I will say that when I'm depressed I like to watch things on NOVA because people discovering all these awesome things about this earth we're living on makes me feel like there's still a lot to look forward to. 
My new medication seems to be helping to stabilize my moods, which is good. So far there doesn't seem to be any harsh side effects, aside from a touch of drowsiness the first couple days I take it. I'm on Geodon so that's a new one for me.
I'm still sad, that's natural, but the bone crushing depression that was trampling me seems to have...
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I'm still sad, that's natural, but the bone crushing depression that was trampling me seems to have...
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junecarter:
Oh my goodness. You are such a sweet, wonderful person! thank you so much!
If there is anything I can do, please let me know
If there is anything I can do, please let me know
idwraith:
I will thank you.
There are times when it seems like everything has gone still and silent. Those times aren't as comforting when you're alone.
I just sort of miss having someone's body warm next to me.
I just sort of miss having someone's body warm next to me.
Coming home
9pm California time we arrived at the airport. Thanks to a stomach virus I had crapped myself by boarding and tossed the underwear. 3am Mima started having trouble breathing and had to be put on emergency oxygen. She was evacuated off the plane at JFK and taken to the hospital. Jet Blue completely failed to give me any help with the boys or...
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9pm California time we arrived at the airport. Thanks to a stomach virus I had crapped myself by boarding and tossed the underwear. 3am Mima started having trouble breathing and had to be put on emergency oxygen. She was evacuated off the plane at JFK and taken to the hospital. Jet Blue completely failed to give me any help with the boys or...
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I'm losing my mind.
My doctor took me off my medications so that we could start a new medication. In the meantime I've detoxed and my mind functions have gone through the floor. I've tried to ditch all my friends, started fights, angered people. Everyone is upset or mad at me.
I've been on the phone all day, trying to get started on the new...
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My doctor took me off my medications so that we could start a new medication. In the meantime I've detoxed and my mind functions have gone through the floor. I've tried to ditch all my friends, started fights, angered people. Everyone is upset or mad at me.
I've been on the phone all day, trying to get started on the new...
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drusylla:
Can you make an appt with your doctor and insist you start your new medication? Since your symptoms are so severe, I'm sure you could get SOMETHING to hold you over til then.
idwraith:
I'm trying. Working on getting a phone conference going and then having them send my information to the pharmacy so that I can pick up the script and have it filled by the end of today...but I haven't heard back from them.
So tonight I deleted my paganspace and okcupid accounts. They weren't working for me and frankly I get tired of talking to stupid people, or reading their posts. I've left all the groups I was in on here, except for the UpstateNY one, and that'll probably come soon.
I've come to realize that I have a lonely path ahead of me, and that's for the...
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I've come to realize that I have a lonely path ahead of me, and that's for the...
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drusylla:
*hugs*
There are times I wonder if signing my children over to my parents and checking permanently into a mental institution might not be the best thing for me to do. I'm not solid in the head. I can't remember one of my tenants paying rent, despite the fact that he says he's given me 3 payments of $50. When I was in college and things...
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heartbaker:
I really hope things get better for you
idwraith:
I go to therapy every week. Trying to keep my shit together. Just feeling pretty fragile right now with my wife's second memorial service coming up. I'll be in California (San Francisco, Camp Cazedero area) from the 17th to the 21st.
I've come to realize, painfully, that I'm a single dad. That no matter how much people say they're going to be there for me, they can't always be. That's just the way things are. If one of my sons wakes up in the middle of the night, I'm the only one here to help them.
I've been relying, or trying to rely, to much on...
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I've been relying, or trying to rely, to much on...
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giastrange:
no i think you are the strong one, even though you might not feel it. i am sure you are a wonderful loving dad to your boys. look after yourself ((((((hugs))))))
What con are you talking about?