iamspoonbender

WARNING: WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ MAY BE DISTURBING.

ok, so i think that something is wrong with me. i have been having very vivid dreams the past few nights. nothing abnormal, mind you. but i will give you a brief description of last nights nocturnal adventures.

i had this dream that kept flowing from one to the next. you know, the location and people constantly changing.

any way, it began in high school. and i was in class, and really worried about not having homework or some stupid shit, and then i realize that i am dreaming. has this ever happened to you? when you are dreaming and you KNOW that you are dreaming? so you purposely do stuff you wouldn't do in real life?

ok, so i tell off my teacher and basically tell him that i am dreaming and he isn't real. so then - i start roaming the school. i beat up a couple kids who used to pick on me. here's where i get uncomfortable. i run into this girl i had a crush on, and we start having sex. it was really hot and steamy, but really short -

and then i am in like spain or something, walking through these really narrow allys in the sun. and there are beautiful women everywhere and every once in a while i stop and lead one of them into a dark corner and begin having sex with them. but it never lasts. it's like, we take off our clothes and literally as soon as penetration happens the girl is gone and i am walking down the ally again.

any way, i woke up feeling really guilty. i felt like i took advantage of these women, and i have no idea who they are and they are not even REAL for godssakes, and i just feel REALLY bad.

ya, so that has been on my mind all day. i feel guilty AND i am kinda horny and pent up. ugh.

sorry to indulge. forgive me?