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Last night I had the most painfull dream I ever had..

I'm no frequent dreamer, and sometimes I do have trully scary dreams, or some wich you could call a torture, since I can dream my bowels are beind removed by teeth and where I do feel pain untill it's over, and only then can I wake up...
But even on those kinds of dreams I allways wake up and feel happy, "cuz at least I dreamed"!

Tonight it all changed..
in the dream there was no pain, no fear..
It wa a perfect dream! actually, too perfect.. It had all the pleasures I could have in life, and all the flaws, common fears, anguishes and rushes.. all that makes life feel like if we're awake.. but it just didn't mattered!
and there is where lies true pain! It was that addictive kind of pleasure, that addictive feeling of perfection wich you know that won't ever be so real again!

Unless.. you go back to dreaming.. forever..

but the worst trickerster of all, that Loki sent dream, It made me feel like the only reason that all those dreamy pleasures ain't my reality , is because of me.. because of what I said and did in the past..

What a gorgeous way to live your birthday night!!