jeez louise...what does a guy gotta do for a satisfying life with a story book ending around here??...well, my weeks off to a terrific start already... i got yelled at for no aparent reason by some one whos supposed to be my friend and though, i may not seem it i am the sensitive type...i don't know how to relate to people i meet i feel like i'm always on the outside and the only thing that stops me from pulling that trigger is a hope that maybe tomorrow will be better...well that and my masacisitic tendency to want to live and suffer...eh, i'll find happiness some where and hopefully soon, i'm not a strong man...i may break into a billion peices and leave everyone that cares about me to pick them up...i think i need a holiday...like thanksgiving..i love turkey 