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tried to sleep. couldn't. too tired to work right now. grrr.

made another pot of coffee. i'm sure my massive intake of caffiene might have something to do with the not being able to sleep. but. when i'm this run down, it keeps me acting human. so i keep drinking it. besides. it's delicious.

it's raining here. the work crew has left. thank god. now...
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pdxgeek:
You know... Elektra opens tomorrow and Hyena kind of looks like Elektra (from the comics). How goes it in New Orleans? I've missed it since I left.

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pdxgeek:
"Once upon a time a poor pious peasant died, and arrived before the gate of heaven. At the same time a very rich, rich lord came there who also wanted to get into heaven. Then saint peter came with the key, and opened the door, and let the great man in, but apparently did not see the peasant, and shut the door again. And now the peasant outside heard how the great man was received in heaven with all kinds of rejoicing, and how they were making music, and singing within. At length all became quiet again, and saint peter came and opened the gate of heaven, and let the peasant in. The peasant, however, expected that they would make music and sing when he went in also, but all remained quite quiet. He was received with great affection, it is true, and the angels came to meet him, but no one sang. Then the peasant asked saint peter how it was that they did not sing for him as they had done when the rich man went in, and said that it seemed to him that there in heaven things were done with just as much partiality as on earth. Then said saint peter, by no means, you are just as dear to us as anyone else, and will enjoy every heavenly delight that the rich man enjoys, but poor fellows like you come to heaven every day, but a rich man like this does not come more than once in a hundred years."
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woke up today. smoked my last cigarette. put on a pot of coffee. threw on some clothes and drove to the chevron for twenty dollars of gas and a new pack of smokes.

begin day two of drawing. got most of book one (out of three) penciled in. gotta tweek some sketches and then go to inking.

and my mind keeps drifting off. can't stay...
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carryavengeance:
it'll be great if less fucking people show...that means my girl can get a flight into New Orleans easier tongue
yuriel:
thanks dear smile
meh i know the feeling smile
EL SUICIDO LOCO
mad love
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slept about 24 hours. that was nice.

feeling better. not as wound-up. crazy. losing it. heh.

hmmm. well, today i'm getting started on that commision illustration gig. i need to have all of it done by... (wait for it) ...this saturday. um, yeah. sure, i draw real good, and real fast, but it's a stretch even for me. i could get into how...
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pumpkineater:
i've been having some strange dreams lately too. i wonder what they mean.
argentumblack:
i got all done cept mix cd's for friends and my new cd's in the mail blackeyed
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nothing to say.

hell. that's not true.

but it's easier than true, and that's what i go for these days. and i feel nothing but awful. like a waste of hide. with the rot catching up, coming to the surface.

i've been here for over an hour. writing. and erasing. and over and over.

there's nothing i can say to do justice to this.





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argentumblack:
oh well...there is always next post.
whereigrow:
Hey, glad you're back. I wanna come visit sometime when you won't be swamped at work...or it's not 4AM....Maybe your work isn't such a good spot. Let me know what's up wink
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i promise, soon, that i'll be much better about responding to comments. and making meaningful journal entries. and other stuff, too. but, not today. laziness becomes me.

left work early last night. it was slow, and i'm not back into my bartending groove yet, after being off for two weekends in a row. my feet and legs are killing me. i'll get used to it...
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the_squishy:
Yeah i had a good new years. I got drunk for the first time. biggrin as for resolutions i am supposed to be eating healthier but that hasnt happened yet ahaha. Sounds like you're hella busy so I'll keep this short. laters
argentumblack:
Watch this and the key word is bathtub. That is where I wanted to be.

But alas family gatherings had to be attended.
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mmm.

yeah, i'm still alive.

this is my first update in quite a while, and i don't have a lot of time in front of the computer. so. thank you everyone for commenting, the happy wishes, for giving half a shit that i exist, etc. you all rock. hard. i mean it. much love.

i'm still in somerset, so it goes without saying that there's...
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melvina:
i will duct tape her to a rocking chair in the jules room and she will not return. MU HA HA.
gosifer:
hopefully i will make it to nola in a weekend or two and we'll get to actually hang out. have a safe trip back.
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well, tonight's the last shift of 2004. forgive me if i'm not inclined to do a "snake and jake's '04: a look back" type summary of this year's bartending hits and misses, bloopers, tragedies, hilarities, etc. it would take way too long, and require way too much thought.

so. i leave monday morning to fly back home to Kentucky. tomorrow night will probably consist of...
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oracle:
happy new year pretty lady
pumpkineater:
happy new year
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i was talking to mel just now. and i'm super stressed, because, like i told her. nothing, and i mean nothing, has fucking happened to me for months. and then this month, which is a bad month anyway, because. because it is. it was before, and now. the 22nd. is coming up. fast. and it feels like ten years, but it's only been one.

and...
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melvina:
you feel like puking too?
wow.
we're.
twinkies.
uncognitive:
Awww, thanks.

Remind me to babble semi-coherently in journal form more often, then.

I don't know when you're off to the land of less stress and no internet, but if I don't talk to you before then, have fun, get some sleep, etc.

kiss
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uhg. ever start to write, and realize you're really angry about something that you hadn't noticed you were so upset by before? and that you're so angry and so upset on so many different levels, that you can't even think straight enough to explain what it is you're mad about, and why?

little things have been catching me by suprise like this. when i try...
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ondyne:
It's funny I was thinking the same thing recently. I've had somethings happen this past week that I need to converse about to someone face to face, but the closest I can get is talking to my girl who Selket for hours on end on the phone. The worst part is, I know I won't find that kind of friend here in BR. If we lived just a teeny bit closer we could vent/converse together. kiss
melvina:
i promise to move soon. cause. your journal entry. yeah. me too. fuck.
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o.k.

just woke up. going to the coffeeshop because i'm out of coffee here. need to make a vet appointment to make sure the ponch is o.k. to fly. and then they can give him his little doggie passport, and then we can leave this wretched place. not that where i'm headed is grand. but. my family's there. and goddamn it all, i am so...
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st_expedite:
Naw, it probably wasn't him. Like I said, that just means double douchebags.

Thanks for answering my question!
sydni:
I'm still jealous (kind of) of james bond. that guy had the cool gadgets, the swagger, the moves, and the women. Seems pretty glamorous to me...and I especially want all the whorish action, but more romantic and sexy like....yeah baby, yeah!

tongue