hyenahell

it finally stopped raining. but now we have no water. i don't think anyone has water. in the city, that is.

i feel like shit and have ever since i got back to town. i keep getting unexplainable migrane headaches.

i keep promising to do a "real" update, but i don't feel like it. so much shit has gone wrong in the past few weeks that it's overwealming. and typing it all out here would be even more overwealming.

at my most melodramatic, i would say that my life is falling apart, bit by bit.

at my most metaphoric, i'd say that i'm at a crossroad right now; or maybe that i'm standing at the end of the world as i know it, and i could either turn around and go back, or procede into whereabouts unknown... or just stand still and gape. i'm very good at that last one, but it hasn't seemed to work out for me.

as it stands, i'm feeling quite curt. so i'll just say that i've got a lot of shit that needs sorting out.


anyway.

i'm trying real fucking hard not to let any of this affect my relationships with people on here and in real life. i don't like to burden folks with my own bad moods, or be that girl that does nothing but complain about how rotten life is and how she's been dealt a shitty hand and nothing can possibily make things better at this point, etc. (that last one's a bit of a hyperbole... i sincerely hope no one really thinks i'm like that.)

in any case. i'll disappear before i let that happen. that's my policy.

well, that's about it. my next entry will follow the strict formula of: "if you ain't got nothin' nice to say, then shut the fuck up."

much love.
-Hyena.