hello. this is your captain, Hyena, speaking. all aboard, all aboard.
i haven't slept more than eight hours in the past week. can't. damn medication. you'd think i'd wise up, eventually, and either stay off it or on it, and stop see-sawing back and fucking forth on the whacky ride that is anti-depressants. or maybe i should give up and start going back to the shrink. or maybe i should drink more. or less. hell, i figure everybody's got their equivilant the little happy pills. something that gets you going or keeps you going or just plain keeps you from giving it all up. drugs. alcohol. sex. pain. etc. something to take the edge off of life. equilize things, so to speak. or maybe you don't. maybe you're enightened. maybe you've cast off those earthly chains and have risen above such mortal frivolry. not me, buddy. not me.
in any case, i promise i'll do a real update and check up on all my beautiful friends (that'd be y'all folks, f.y.i.)next time i'm online. i don't have it in me now. i'm way too cracked-out right now to make sense. and. dios mio. if tonight goes anything like last week, it'll be a damned miracle if i make it through with this little sleep. just keep your proverbial fingers crossed that i don't have to break up any brawls this time.
over and out,
-Hyena.
i haven't slept more than eight hours in the past week. can't. damn medication. you'd think i'd wise up, eventually, and either stay off it or on it, and stop see-sawing back and fucking forth on the whacky ride that is anti-depressants. or maybe i should give up and start going back to the shrink. or maybe i should drink more. or less. hell, i figure everybody's got their equivilant the little happy pills. something that gets you going or keeps you going or just plain keeps you from giving it all up. drugs. alcohol. sex. pain. etc. something to take the edge off of life. equilize things, so to speak. or maybe you don't. maybe you're enightened. maybe you've cast off those earthly chains and have risen above such mortal frivolry. not me, buddy. not me.
in any case, i promise i'll do a real update and check up on all my beautiful friends (that'd be y'all folks, f.y.i.)next time i'm online. i don't have it in me now. i'm way too cracked-out right now to make sense. and. dios mio. if tonight goes anything like last week, it'll be a damned miracle if i make it through with this little sleep. just keep your proverbial fingers crossed that i don't have to break up any brawls this time.
over and out,
-Hyena.
But I hope you survived your bartending shift, and I can wait until you're back in balance before expecting another journal update.
Get some sleep and know that positive wishes are being beamed your way through the magic that is the internet.
Damnitall. I'm sorry you can't get any sleep. I know what thats like. Wish i could do something to actively help you.
Cant say i have cast of me chains either lass.
Such is life huh.
Oh sweet. You like Cemetary Man. I didn't think anyone else on this damn planet has seen that w00t! that just made my day. I just finished watching a movie called Dead Man with John Depp. It kicked ass. If you're in the mood to rent something different, rent that. It wont let you down.
Take care.
I truly hope stuff jumps back for you.
me thoughts are with ya hearty.
~L.O.~