hyenahell

1.Dead Nazi, all the way. (Jager and Rumpleminze)
2. I'd ask my fishies, would you like one of those tacky underwater scuba guy decorations, or am I on the right track with the decorating?
3.Wednesday
4.Yelapa
5.Haiti
6.Tibet minus the Chinese invasion
7.yes, too much
8.five
9.Bjork--Hyper Ballad
10.happy

The old pic returns and the profile is updated. So it's Amsterdam and not Mexico?

Answers:
1) Coffee
2) What's up with all the meowing and headbutting?
3) Yesterday. Hey, you had a standing invite but didn't show up, so we had to start without you.
4) NYC. SF is a close second. Then Toronto. I'm very urban and western hemisphere.
5) Berlin, London (again), Tokyo, Atlantis. Oh, and somehow New Orleans seems more appealing than it used to.
6) Anywhere that feels like home
7) Nope. Sorry.
8) Too many and not enough, simultaneously.
9) I should make something up to sound cool, but ever since I've been riding a bicycle to work I've been smitten with 70's rock. So yeah, "Slow Ride" by Foghat.
10) At peace with myself. Hopefully I'll be one of those cool old guys who own their own dimly-lit record stores, too.

So, are you officially back from hiatus?

I analyzed The Well-Tempered Clavier(book I) for my Theory class a while ago. I didn't like it...I mean, I understand the importance of what he did, but boroque music gives me that "too much food in one sitting feeling", you know what I mean?

mmm camel non filtered. i am currently boycotting camel products though, due to the aclu boycot with the graphic arts union. so if i want unfiltered id go with luckys. i think im gonna buy me some soon.

no ones accused me of selling out. hell i dont talk to anyone really. if they did id probably punch them. its a personal feeling. the paradox. the part of me that is a dirty hippy and the part of me that wants to be a violent thug. you know the deal since you were there too. if mcdonalds is a career for me ill hang myself before 30. everyday i work i think of how itd look with a brick through the window. some day friends, someday.

Yay for drunk posting.

I don't know if I contributed to the online version of the gravitational pull back to socialization. If I did, I don't know if I should apologize or not.

But it is nice to see that your absence triggered a "hey, where the heck is she?" response. I have a habit of disappearing and not being noticed, but then again I'm antisocial all the time already.

And us sober people don't have a good excuse for poor spelling and grammar, so you should take advantage of the free pass while you can. Fuck, there are worse things to do while drunk than misspell something.

So when do I get to see some of your new drawings?

And when will I get my share of late night drunken Hyena journal responses?

"tell me what to make"

Gross.

They told my friend she was crazy, so she was. Listen to you before you listen to them. I'm not saying there is no validity to what you are saying....or what they say. But I think labels of 'insanity' are often way off mark. It makes a small problem a big one. I hate seeing that happen to people. It's happened to too many of my friends.

Isolation is always great for working!

Well i failed my quest. went 1 day without self abuse. 3 days with no booze. and 4 without smoking. i said fuck it. the whole time i tried to detatch from everything i kept being reminded of one of my teachers. We were talking about eastern philosophy, and he concluded that bhuddism strips humans of the human expirience. Without love hate desire vices disgust mourning we might as well be dead.

as for idiology. im havin a hard time with it. i feel as though ive sold my soul to the devil working at mcdonalds. but at the same time if i dotn pay my rent i get kicked outta my house and i dont have a car. to me it sounds like fucking excuses for tryin to make myself feel better. theres that hunger inside me to get outta it, to walk out and to quit, but god knows id be fucking my entire family over doing it. i try little acts of destruction from the inside, wasting bags and gloves and shit. goin slow on some work. ive thought about calling the labor dept or osha. just to fuck with em. but at least i havent started shopping at wal mart yet.

and hun i like reading your ramblings, and right about now im glad you posted. ive felt more isolated than i have in a long long time the last few days. i feel something stiring but whether thats good or bad i dont know. i could either create something good, or i could flip out again and all that shit. but you made me smile. God knows i dont smile much anymore.

Picturing you as a bartender makes me wish I drank.

I hope your dog is feeling better, and yeah, sleep.

Sorry for such the generic boring journal reply.

Well, how do you know the world is showing you it's true colors? Maybe it's actually showing you a less accurate version of itself that you think is more real based on your mood at the time, and the novelty of the new perspective?

Either way, you're still a rockstar.

Tag, you're it.

I'd be willing to admit that the world isn't as pleasant as it seems when I'm in a up mood if it could be proven to me that it's not as hellish as it seems as when I'm in a down mood.

Maybe it's both, at the same time, like some kind of multi-layered ice cream desert.

I'm sure disease, decay and death are great truths of the world, but I'd certainly hope they weren't the only great truths of the world. That's a big difference.

Anyway, hugs and es to you. So there.

Tag.

i do actually keep several real journals. i kind of collect them sorta. I like the old style leather ones that you have to tie up. But damn are they pricey. Two of them i got as gifts, they're my favorte ones. I also have a quill and and inkwell that i use. sheesh talk about antiquated.

Hey you have good journal material there. i like it.
sometimes when i write poetry, it doesn't really feel like im writing it....go figure.
anyway. have a happy one Hyena.

XOXOX

-L.O.-

I should have kept a journal.

You're a much better writer than you seem to give yourself credit for.

Yes, I am this random.

The deluge is nothing...you only need to start worrying when it turns to blood, or toads. Then you know God's not just fucking around with you because he's bored.

As a fellow basement dweller, I sympathize with the leaks. Ugh...let's see, over the past three years I've had washing machine foam back up out of every drain in my apartment, water come down through cracks in the ceiling, flood water rush in under my front door and flood half the apartment two times, raw sewage rush under my front door and flood half the apartment once, and raw sewage rush under my bedroom wall and flood the other, previously flood-free half of the apartment. When or if we run off to Mexico, we're investing in a house on fucking stilts.

Should I congratulate you on moving out of the boyfriend's place? I mean, from everything I've read about him he seems like nothing but a bad thing for you, but let me know what brand of sympathy you want.

And I saw a shirt recently that said "I'm a country song waiting to happen". Maybe your dog will steal your job and your truck, and then you'll have to deal with drowning your sorrows after walking to the goddamn bar and being served whiskey by your own damn dog. (cue the steel guitar solo).

I didn't mean to remind you of your "not getting any"-dom (trust me, that's not the reaction I was hoping for!), but I can't imagine you don't have plenty of volunteers eager and willing to help you remedy that situation.

Did I drop that hint loudly enough?



[Edited on Jul 11, 2003]

Peeling plaster fits well into my image of New Orleans...hope the moving while angry thing goes okay. I didn't even know you had a boyfriend. I thought you were in love with your best friend.

So when do we set sail, Cap'n?



[Edited on Jul 11, 2003]

aaaaaaw. I have a knife in my heart half of the time too.
I had a 13" butcher knife in there yesterday.
I need to pay more attention to Ezili because she has removed the knives for me before.....

hey is the 25th an ok time to take the bus to new orleans or is that bad for you?

Ha! The Starbucks wireless connection doesn't block SG.

Hope you aren't swimming
(^ ^) ng

(I would braid your hair)

Hey look, they made a pirate smiley!