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ack to self destructive habits again, which I know BB is upset about but I try really hard to quell my anxiety and anger and depression. its hard when you cant really talk to anyone who'll listen.

daisy had gotten herself a boyfriend and therefore ended her nearly 2 year dry spell. but her and her bf are just so annoying. hes so sappy and always asks questions about things that should just be accepted. and me, the queen of asking why, complaining about someone asking questions is bad. hes forever wanting more info. more reassurance. why do you like me? how do you feel about us? i find you amazing, beautiful, misunderstood. hes feeding her the crappy shit from her romance novels and shes only half-buying it because shes such a faker, a hypocrite, so fucking unsure of herself altho she lies to the world, and herself. god i wanna say so much but i dont dare because id rather have a half assed friend, then be totally alone. plus if i have to spend 40 hrs a week in a small gatehouse with her, id rather she not be mad at me.


i just wish things were simple.

i need an outlet. i need control. i need a friend. i need a new life.