Work: busy. thats the only way to discribe it. we're busy.my buddy Jaime... hes gone. he took work as a cleaning crew subcontracted by apartment complexes. Chip gone as well. he was laid off and asked to come back and did for a few days. then he told the boss man he didnt want to come in unless it was a full 8 hours. he was called for a day and never showed. goodbye to you. Tom, Tom got the axe as with chip months ago as well and hes doing his best to blow us off. JT and i were left. JT is a semi-interesting fellow. He drinks maybe alil too much looking for love with out commitment. he's aging and doesnt like work at all. doesnt want to be at his own business.he wants to check his stocks until the markets closing and then work on his race car which he is waiting for everyone one who he wants to help to help.its weird to me he isnt interested in hiring any one new to capitalize on our busy nature. he is content paying me to do all the work and him pick up the minimal slack. so me fustrated with lack of work, low pay and the disire to see a DEAR DEAR friend of mine prompted me to get plane tickets a few months ago and leave when the weather is hot and work is busier. i asked, i have a week. im thinking paid. well no it wasn't. Well my planning for hot and busy was perfect.i left with ton s of jobs hes actually been putting off for us both to do. he did 1 of them and he's left the hardest of them all for me. his lil hard worker. granted ive gotten raises since i planned my vacation and works picked up but for some reason i still cant be happy for his lack of enthusiasm for being there and putting his 8 hours in every week day on his business, not his stocks, his race car or his love without comitment relationships. we've hired a new young girl named Echo. she does alright but admits to being lazy on job i give her to do. do not admit that you do that please, Echo. that doesnt make me happy. she does alright i guess i wish id see more from her too. so iwas emailed on my vacation about how hard work has been without me, and loss of screws i didnt lose but just hid well from him. so i come in ready to go an hour late (given how late i got in the night before was 3AM). i was a bit depressed comming off an awsome trip. I went to lunch and seen a barista i have had some good little conversations with before and she cheered me up alittle bit. I go back to work finding out that we will have friday off due to JT's birthday. i died just alittle bit inside upon hearing this. why? i would have gladly taken thursday and friday to stay with my DEAR DEAR friend 4 more days. thats 4 more days where im something other than the person who does the work you dont want to, or the son that still lives at home. so that truely has pissed me off. i want to see if he will pay me my 5 days vacation this pay period cuz maybe he does it weird. if he doesnt. i think im gonna have to bring it up and start a war. i want 2 weeks if its not paid effective retroactively or 1 week paid next year. busy times at work let me tell you.

Family: well my sister nephew brother in law and i did plenty of bonding over alcohol in june. that was good.it was better than our normal fist fights we have. dont you think?the relationship with the parents, still the same nothing new to report there.

Time Of My Life: So my DEAR DEAR friend, i met her several years ago and we've talked a good amount of time in these years. She had some health issues earlier this year and it freaked me out like whoa the thought that she could have died and close to brain damage as well. it brought us alot closer than she and i thought. we already talked about just about everything but now we were like tight knit together. so we decided it would be neat to spend some time together.we hatched the plan for me to visit and have some good times. the first night was good cuddled up tight together. i slept apparently she didnt. she said she just laid there watching me and touching me. what did i do "laid there like a dead dog". that sounds about right.she went off to work which was boring for me. i made her a shrimp cocktail and read a magazine. it was cosmo-ish but i forget what it was. that night we took the bus to see Ingram Hill. they are a bit pop rockish. they were actually pretty good. they did "solsbury hill" worked in "comfortably numb" verse into one of their songs and finished their show with "american girl". their orginal stuff was good too so much so i got a copy of their cd from my DEAR DEAR friend.Saturday was country fest. it was so hot we didnt stay long. it would have cooked her and me for that matter. we ended up at the movies a good compremise i think. i feel alil bad for not wanting to stick it out so she could see the bands she wanted too. sunday we drove to Virginia Beach. it was a bit of a long drive due to an accident on the freeway they couldnt clear for a hour or so. she got on me because i was getting mad with the people walking around the freeway. ha. she says she will make me less angry. we made it too the beach. when we got to our room settling in the beach was cleard for a thunder storm. so we decided to walk in the rain to dinner at the hilton. we quickly realized we should have stayed there. we took a trip to the top floor to the sky bar. it had a fantasic view of the atlantic and the Virginia Beach board walk. dinner was late due to us missing the buzzer in the sky bar. i B.S.ed just alittle to get a table faster. just alittle i swear. well she called her parents who are a bit conservitive and were not happy to hear about my lil visit which made things akward. i also learned her and alcohol makes her want to sleep and sleep she did at 9. i went out and put my toes in the sand and the cool water at my feet hoping she would come out. she didnt. i wasnt too happy so i went back. i basically went back out side and figured screw this. i went in there and shook her awake. i said we didnt drive this far to go to sleep at 9 and i kept her up talking and other things until like 2 am. salvaged the night really. i wouldnt be very happy if i hadnt had done that. the next day we finally got in the water. it was good temp like 76. a bit of a chill and then it quickly went away. perfect id say.we drove back for the next 2 days we didnt do a whole lot which i think i liked we spent alot of time with each other.especially on the last day. the last day was good up until i had to leave. it was so depressing leaving this woman. we had been 1 entity for 6 days. we ate slept and once showered together. it was great. she stoked my skin with her nails massaged my back. i massaged her right back. there was nothing but love when we were in the room.its so bizare no one ive dated in this area has been like that to me. even the best peoson i had been all about before my DEARDEAR friend doesnt compare. i felt totally different when we were with each other. im not used to it but i felt good.really good.if there is any way a relationship should feel like it should be this. she would ride with me to the top and right down to the bottom she would be there. i think i would do the same. thats about all i really want from a relationship is someone to be there with me.

Life Path: my life path seems to be crap. the one person i want to be with so far away. my job which i liked last year went down in a ball of flames. im tired of doing everything my boss is like a monkey on my back. i still live at home which im begining to see thats no way to live.my volkswagen is still not fixed and i really have to do something with it. but i dont know where to get agood kit to fix it. my volvo i need to get rid of it soon. of course my DEAR DEAR friend says i should move out to where she is. there are more oppertunities. she may be right but im in no position to move. so starting tomorrow, i need to get my shit together develope a plan of attack and get my volkswagen fixed and my volvo out of my life. that will put me in a much easier position to where if i get fired or fed up and quit i can easily move. ust toss everything into a uhaul slap down 1000 and get out of this place.