i just got paid, after paying all my bills, i'm down to $410 to get me through the month. now remember, i still haven't bought groceries gotten gas for my car or repairs for my car, i'm also planning to drive back home for thanksgiving, i have to pay for gas for that and any hanging out up there. craptastic. the good thing is, that...
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i'm listening to the latest matthew sweet, man i fuckin' depressed. i don't know. shit, she's gone, it's bothering me. i'm trying to get on with my life and not think about it, but when i'm not in school, i'm alone. my hottie friend hasn't called. i'm paranoid that she is avoiding me. it's probably not the case. but it's fuckin' lonely. i need to...
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redheaddevil:
Ha! You said "dick"! Hahaha!
I know exactly where you are. I'm sorry that you feel so down, that sucks. Yeah, getting out is a great distraction, especially where there are other people. Is there an art gallery that has opening receptions free to the public? Those are always fun because there's free food!
You are only isolated in that you are sitting alone. There are people, like myself, who have (and probably will again) feel the same way you do at this very moment. You are not ugly, creepy, or a personality leper. You have great taste in music, you're YOUNG, and you're a good online friend. So there
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I know exactly where you are. I'm sorry that you feel so down, that sucks. Yeah, getting out is a great distraction, especially where there are other people. Is there an art gallery that has opening receptions free to the public? Those are always fun because there's free food!
You are only isolated in that you are sitting alone. There are people, like myself, who have (and probably will again) feel the same way you do at this very moment. You are not ugly, creepy, or a personality leper. You have great taste in music, you're YOUNG, and you're a good online friend. So there
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zenobia:
doing pretty good. finally went out with my friends. it's been awhile and we actually ended up having a good time. any plans for halloween?
yay! finally got off my ass and added my wishlist. browse and see my fetishes, and buy me a copy of star wars widescreen on dvd
zenobia:
i'll still miss him bunches. The closer the time comes for him the leave(nov 10,04) the more cocky and detached he becomes. It's hard to explain. Oh well. lots of good choices on the wishlist.
i feel that my apt. is my jail cell i need to get on with my life. i need to make art. tomorrow, i'll go get some gesso so i can paint. i have a wood panel. i have the idea. i just need to make it. i'll be okay. my girl doesn't love me anymore. it hurts, but i WILL get on with my...
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do11face:
The new stuff annoys me so I just look at the new sets and that's it.
I am on friendster sometimes.
I am sorry to here about your lovelife.
that sure does motherhumpin' suck....
good luck with the art.
beautiful things come from the brokenest of hearts!
I am on friendster sometimes.
I am sorry to here about your lovelife.
that sure does motherhumpin' suck....
good luck with the art.
beautiful things come from the brokenest of hearts!
zenobia:
It's good that you are finding something to focus your energy on. Breakups are very difficult to get through but you'll make it. i'm glad the date was good also but i'm keeping at just a few dates. I don't want to go there right now it's to soon.
[Edited on Oct 24, 2004 11:38PM]
[Edited on Oct 24, 2004 11:38PM]
the hits just keep on coming. my ex never called me back. it's easy to avoid someone when your 16 hour away. a buddy of mine was going to come on down from chicago on sat. taking some of my stuff. now he bailed. so he's not coming. i also fucked up my check book, i forgot to write in a check. so i bounce...
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i called her last night. i had to vent to her how i felt. i was so mad, i've been so upset lately. she told me flat out she doesn't love me anymore, i just pushed on on how i felt betrayed. that she is chicken shitting out of this relationship again, that she burned me twice. i'm so pissed. i'm angry. she felt bad...
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zenobia:
It sucks when you put your all into someone and it seems like they can just end like you weren't as important them as they were to you. I'm sorry she is being this and hopefully you have people close to you that you can vent to. I think it was good that you let her know how you felt and at least be able to get it out. She may not have said what you wanted to hear but at least you were able to let her know how you felt. Anyways I won't write a book just wanted to encourage you a little. I know it's rough but it'll start to get better. 
sheena:
no there wasnt enough time...
i am bummed. i just....shit. i dunno. i have too much time on my hands. i'm broke and my girl is gone and i'm a god damn mess. i want to talk to her face to face. ask her "what the fuck?"
she doesn't love me, i was a good soild boyfriend, i just wasn't a good finacially stable boyfriend...before. now i have a job,...
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she doesn't love me, i was a good soild boyfriend, i just wasn't a good finacially stable boyfriend...before. now i have a job,...
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my girl left me again. it's offically over no more. we are not getting back together.
i don't know how to deal.
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i'm on 2 and a half hours of sleep
i'm tired sad angry
i have to put up with dickhead kids today. i'll try my best. i don't know how or what to feel. time to put on my game...
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i don't know how to deal.
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i'm on 2 and a half hours of sleep
i'm tired sad angry
i have to put up with dickhead kids today. i'll try my best. i don't know how or what to feel. time to put on my game...
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sicily:
fuck your game face. i think you should dress up in a potato sac, hide behind a bush in a public area...a randomly scream at people and throw rocks, sticks, forks and clumps of leaf. you might get arrested, but i promise you'll feel better!
laputa64:
i have LOTS of them available at any time. you just say the word!!
i'm frustrated. very frustrated. i'm going to explode frustrated. i so want to get some, it's insane. my girl is not here, i hang out with a hottie and when i go out my fuckin' head is a sprinkler.
watching porn and punching the clown is not helping. it used to. but not now, i need something, interactive. like, i want to do something naughty....
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watching porn and punching the clown is not helping. it used to. but not now, i need something, interactive. like, i want to do something naughty....
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prttybyrd:
Maybe the hottie does think you're attractive but knows you have a girl and doesn't want to mess with that. I know I know, that doesn't help anything either.
How are things with you and the gf?? Looking up I hope?
How are things with you and the gf?? Looking up I hope?
tatum:
Thank you for the comment on my set the other day!
[Edited on Oct 13, 2004 1:23PM]
[Edited on Oct 13, 2004 1:23PM]
i feel a lot better than i did yesterday. i had a good talk with one of my boss, she was looking out for me. it feels really good that i have someone to talk to.
I here ya I'm supa broke and I have a ticket to pay!!!
I way like it!