hopesfall

Well, lets see here, my ex-girlfriend Emily, who before Jessica was the fuckign love of my life, is in the nationl gaurd, she was stationed in spokane for like a year and she just got back yesterday, but the shit thing is that she is leaving on saturday to go to iraq for 18 months, I am not too happy about this, because she told me some shit last night that i have wanted her to tell me for a very fucking loooooooooooooooong time. So it is hard as shit to have her come into my life again, and leave just as fuckign fast, i have not seen or talked to her for a year and i got to see her for a few hours last night and that might be all i see of her for the next year and a fucking half. So I am not going to see her on her Birthday, or mine, and i will not see her on her birthday next year either, she will be 22 and i will be 21 by the time she gets back. I really do not want to wait that long, and hey what do you do when you ex who you still love tells finally tells you that they love you, and that they have grown up and realized that she made alot of mistakes and that she regrets them all, what do you do when you have a girlfriend that you love to death, but your ex means just as much to you if not more to you then your girlfriend does, this is the worst shit to ever happen, emily fucking told me she loves me, what the fuck, i have not seen her in a year why could she have not told me this in August of last year