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hopelessdope

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Sunday Jun 12, 2005

Jun 12, 2005
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People are always upsetting me. Why do people feel the need to debate things all it does is make me irritated even when it's just a normal casual debate. I feel and think what I want about certain things and unless I'm looking to hear another perspective on the subject I dont want to hear. I respect people who think different I just dont need nor want them trying to change my mind on things.

I don't like someone telling me that emotions are something that can always be controlled. That one can simply change a state of mind or emotion by simply thinking something else. In my experience there are times when I'm in a certain emotion for no real reason at all and simply thinking about something else won't change that... that's me though if something else works for another fine. Drop it I don't want to hear it.

An example of my emotional states .... after I cum (you know get off) I feel kind of depressed and moody. I don't want to be around people or talk to them... I try to ignore this or feel something else but I don't I feel that exact emotion but I hide it. My emotions are not always chosen and cannot always be changed well unless I took some kind of drug that changed my brain chemistry a bit.

I made a step up to phone sex but I can't say it's much more gratifying ... I need the real thing. I just want sex though I think I dont think I have the ability to care about someone or be in a relationship. I dont know I have trouble with the whole thing anymore and I just end up hating people for no real reason. mad
illyria69:
speaking of emotions, i'm now convinced that i'm borderline. seriously, i have/do everything in the standard checklist. i've always known something was wrong with me, but i just thought i was bi-polar. my extreme emotions don't last weeks though. i need to go seek help, but damnit, i'm actually scared. many people have a very negative view of bpd. i'm actually scared of being committed, even if only briefly.

i don't believe people can control their emotions. i think they can hide them or fake something different but what they are feeling is still there.

i'm moody and hate to be bothered after sex, too, most of the time. i don't recall wanting to have a conversation or cuddling or any of that crap at all. i may have done it but what i always want is alone time.
Jun 12, 2005
hopelessdope:
I think everyone has something wrong with them well i dont know maybe I just say that because things are wrong with me. You should go get help though if you feel you need it.

At this point steph i'm just annoyed and stressed out with my life... sometimes I feel i'm going to either become a drug addict or I'll just end up dying just because I don't want to deal with it. It's not even depression it's just a feeling of never being able to succeed in life. I just eh can't stand people at this moment I wish I could get drunk but i'm poor.

I dont know if I was always like that after sex but I know I have been for a while now. Even sometimes in the middle of it I just started hating myself and the other person. Sometimes I just really need to be alone I can't stand being around a lot of people anymore.
Jun 12, 2005

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