There's not really much going on today I've just been watching the cavs and doing a bit of cleaning. Beth is in NYC until Sunday so I've been home alone which is sort of nice it's not often that I get the house to myself but I get bored after a while. Last night I went and hung out with Tatum we just smoked a bit and watched Seinfeld. Abby sent me an IM about maybe hanging out later but I don't know that I'm in the mood to deal with her today and well the last few times have been a bit trying so I don't know. I guess it depends on how I deal with doing nothing all day.
It's been hard to readjust since breaking up with Laura. I guess it's been a few months we broke up just before christmas but still we talking a lot through January and a bit through the first part of February but since we haven't really spoken to each other that much. I guess it's just hard losing this person who had been your best friend for the better part of a year... it really was my first serious relationship in a long while. It just seems weird especially since the break up wasn't about someone not caring anymore or any cheating rather just seeing that we're two seperate people which is a conclusion that sucks to come to. I wanted to ignore it but I know it causes too much tension and it's not fair to ask anyone to be someone different even though I still in a way wish things would work themselves out but as time goes by I don't see that happening.
I would like to try going on dates or just kind of mingling in a way whatever you'd call it instead of going into that funk where I don't want to meet anyone. It is hard to find people though that I find appealing in a romantic sense I like people with strong personalities and who have a sense of themselves while not being stupid or arrogant well that and having common interest while being attractive. Sometimes it seems like a miracle that I've even been able to meet people in the past because I don't know that I always travel the same sort of path as a lot of people. I don't know but it's a thought I don't want to try to get into anything serious but a bit of dating would be nice especially to get out more.
It's been hard to readjust since breaking up with Laura. I guess it's been a few months we broke up just before christmas but still we talking a lot through January and a bit through the first part of February but since we haven't really spoken to each other that much. I guess it's just hard losing this person who had been your best friend for the better part of a year... it really was my first serious relationship in a long while. It just seems weird especially since the break up wasn't about someone not caring anymore or any cheating rather just seeing that we're two seperate people which is a conclusion that sucks to come to. I wanted to ignore it but I know it causes too much tension and it's not fair to ask anyone to be someone different even though I still in a way wish things would work themselves out but as time goes by I don't see that happening.
I would like to try going on dates or just kind of mingling in a way whatever you'd call it instead of going into that funk where I don't want to meet anyone. It is hard to find people though that I find appealing in a romantic sense I like people with strong personalities and who have a sense of themselves while not being stupid or arrogant well that and having common interest while being attractive. Sometimes it seems like a miracle that I've even been able to meet people in the past because I don't know that I always travel the same sort of path as a lot of people. I don't know but it's a thought I don't want to try to get into anything serious but a bit of dating would be nice especially to get out more.