holliday

Uuuuuuuuuuuuggggghhhhhhh...what a dismal day.

I'm actually a pretty big fan of rain. The good thundering kind. But for some reason, it's just not hitting the spot today.

Spent this morning painting my nails and packing my bag full of choice shoes and just about every piece of lingerie/garter/stocking I own in preparation for my shoot with steveneurotic later today.

I'm feeling sluggish and yucky (as per pms) and had been feeling wierd about the shoot because I haven't modeled in a couple weeks and feel sorta rusty and silly about it. But, now that I'm thinking about it, I think it'll be fun. He's a totally nice guy and we always have fun, so I'm not that concerned. I just hope my energy picks up later this afternoon.

I like knowing, for sure, that I really don't give a shit what people think of me.

How do I know this for sure? Because I have absolutely NO problem heading out of my house and into the morning commute with no make up and my hair up in pins wrapped up in my kerchief. I see how they stare and I simply couldn't care less.

I lugged my heavy ass bag full of shoes and lingerie through the AM commute, completely forgetting that I have a fucking back injury. Great.

Today was actually the best day so far, in that I was sore when I woke up, as usual, but wasn't in enough pain to pop my ibuprofen. I'm feeling it now, unfortunately, and I'm sure that I'll pop some before th shoot later to be sure, but I'm relatively satisfied with my recovery.

***in other news***

Ok, there really isn't any. I'm happy to have my cd player back and I'm taking tonight off from my bankrupcy papers so I can just have some fun. I'll be back sweating over them this weekend. Unless I can come up with something better to do (read: greaser)

***UPDATE!!!***

Hey! I just got an email saying I'm being called back for a face to face interview for the sign language interpretting program!!!!!! Yeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhaaaaaaaawwwwww!!!!!!!