holliday

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This is what I feel like most of the time...sitting here with my stupid straw walmart cowboy hat on to keep the hair out of my face...last nights make up still smeared under my eyes...always in some state of hungover...drunkeness...

I'm a moody bitch. Get used to it.

Sometimes I'll make you laugh so hard you'll piss your pants.

Sometimes I'll be the one shoulder you can cry on.

Sometimes I'll be the voice of reason in the madness.

Sometimes I'll just be gone.

Sometimes I'm calm in the face of violence.

Sometimes I'm just the bruiser pounding on someone's face.

Sometimes I'm the most inspired person you've ever known.

Sometimes talking to me will be the catalyst that changes your life.

I'll survive at any and all costs.

I drink too much.

I smoke more.

I probably have a better vocabulary than you but hide it behind the dirtiest mouth you've ever heard.

I have a lot to be sad about.
Even more to be angry about.

I am full of fears that stop me in my tracks.

I have determination so strong that it makes me burn inside.

When things get tough...I brace myself and lean into the wind.

But before I do that...I have to cry out all the fears.

Accept the loss of the things I've left behind.

Strip myself of my attachments...

Break the ties.

Cut the cord.

Bid good-bye to this town...and my experiences here that turned out so differently than I'd imagined.

I've changed. I know that.

I've grown in areas that weren't expected.
Gone cold in some areas that I tried not to.

I am who I am.
I've done what I've done.

Love me or hate me.
Take me or leave me.

Walk with me or stay behind.
I'm going regardless.