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THE WORLD IS WATCHING YOU PRESIDENT BUSH... mad
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spadez:
Just a line to say hey, how's i goin', what's new... and Congrats on the graduation... skull
shesinparties:
yes we are watching our incompetent president give bumbling speeches that don't say shit, and how sweet of him to spend 10 minutes in mississippi doing photo ops with the people of this country that have nothing. puke puke
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luckyp:
You look AMAZING!!! Emphasis on the Zing!
kiss
--l*P
1_dying_wish:
congratulations! (i'm kinda jealous of your new skills!)

you know, i was always one of those people who said "I WILL NEVER LIVE ON THE WEST COAST"... but to be honest i love it here and i don't know if i ever want to go back.

i especially love oakland because it's so much like brooklyn, except for the palm trees and sideshows... and shit, they don't have this many beautiful old chevys back east...

as for sacramento, i can't really speak to it, i've never even visited the area, but i've lived here in oakland for 3 years and i can definitely recommend moving here...

so let me know if you move here, i will need someone to do bodywork on my 63 nova... when i buy one...
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There just isn't much to say these days...every day is like the one before and like the one that's on it's way...

I hate school.

I hate it more with every second that I spend there.

I woke up yesterday (sunday) around 3pm, and like every morning I wake up I have a moment of panic...thinking I've slept through my alarm...but yesterday...I heard myself thinking...wow,...
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carryavengeance:
haha...hmm, i think we have...just not in person tongue
gypsyphoenix:
frown

*hugs*

i can totally understand the catharsis of writing letters you have no intent of ever sending. i'd say about 90% of my letters are of that variety. it just feels better to get it out of your head.
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doll_:
that is fucking hot. how are you lady??
flatblack:
Perfect! I love it!
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Is it possible to be filled with so many emotions that you can't feel anything at all?

Apparently...

Is it possible that I might get one full night sleep without weird, bad dreams or straight up nightmares?

Apparently not...

*meh*

One foot in front of the other...
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toothpick:
I'm crying on the inside.
Hows school? Are you totally going to fuck that guy over? He deserves it.
hati:
Geez, that sucks. I've been keeping up with you journal, so I know all the drama. Hope you are doing okay.

And thank you for the birthday wishes.
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I dread going to school today...

The mercedes program, while posh, has been seriously marred by one of my instructors insistance that he get up onto his soap box for at least an hour about all kinds of contraversial topics...politics, religion, and the military.

Not that I am opposed to listening to people's view on these things...but certainly not while they're up on their soap...
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doineanta:
Just imagine the job we would have done had I been there with you. He'd be crying. Awesome job with the letter! biggrin
guitargeek:
Fuck that motherfucker! Ignorant hillbilly cocksucker!
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flatblack:
I believe those are what is known as "in the air" shoes, because that's where they were made to be, not for walking...
luckyp:
So I just caught up on your journal.
First of all, it was *really* great to see you, if only for a couple of hours, and if only to talk to you for 15 min or so...
Secondly, you are one of the strongest people I know, and what you have accomplished this year, well, it's definitely worthy of some kick ass shoes like the ones you bought!!! Rawr!
Thirdly, in a matter of months you will be able to put the recent crap behind you and really start on your new life! Woohooooo!!!!!
D. (cuz "fourthly" sounds weird) you need to get your sweet ass out of Bush country once and for all!

kiss
--l*P
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A NEW DAY...

Yes, as always, the sun rose this morning on a new day.

By the end of the night I was already feeling better. (thanks very much to my love, doineanta)

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Realized this morning how tired I am of showing up to school still half-drunk from the night before...and that Josh was right, drying myself out and getting myself together is...
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flatblack:
What Austin doesn't make the cut? Oh well. To each his own. Besides, this isnt' the best place to try to dry out.
shamunda:
Sober isn't too bad, it means remembering where you left your keys and the other shoe from the night before.
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FROM BAD TO WORSE...

Have you ever had one of those moments when all the things you knew were wrong...knew were true...but had been avoiding facing suddenly came up and slapped you in the face?

Yeah, that's what this weekend was...

One very major wake up call...

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Saw The Greaser for the first time in a year...and to my relief...felt nothing...

He kept asking...
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thelibra:
Hang in there, sweets.
doineanta:
Each day brings you closer to the day you get the fuck out of there, so stay focused and that heaven sent day will show up sooner than you think. kiss
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So here we are...

I'm going home today for the first time in over a year.

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I finally went ahead and spent some money on myself and bought a printer and a digital camera. I tend to be a money hoarder, and I've been wanting these things forever. I rationalized these purchases by telling myself that I was really spending it on Josh, since...
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thelibra:
you suck, lady frown
champagneofdudes:
i'm so sad. i didn't get to see you. but i don't know if you were actually there or not. i hope you weren't, then i'd feel better about myself.
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Thanks for all your comments...

And an even bigger thanks to anyone who has been forced to put up with my mega-drunk IMing the past few days...

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I hardly even know what to say...

When Josh said to me, I don't even know how to go on...
I had told him, one foot in front of the other...
And that's what I'm trying to...
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toothpick:
Fuck. That's about all I can muster in regards to this.
legionnaire:
I'd tell you how much that sucks, but you already know. I'd say that you'll feel better, but it won't help. The one thing I can offer you is the knowledge that people do come back, and they don't forget the ones who thought of them while they were gone.
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They're taking him anyway.

He said they'd started calling his work every fifteen minutes beginning at 7am. His boss and the secretary just kept hanging up...as if they knew it was a phone call they didn't want to take.

When he eventually got on the phone they told him that it didn't matter what papers we filed. It didn't matter that he's making more than...
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kay:
That fucking sucks.

I'm really sorry they are winning this one angel. How fucked up.

I wish I had words or that I could wrap my arms around you and cry. I hate sending people off to wars. Ugh.

*hug*

~cheers
luckyp:
Damn. You're right, "That sucks" does not begin to cover it! I'm soooooo sorry honey!

kiss
--l*P