hodssorrow

I think its time for me to go back on antidepressants I've been fighting a losing battle without them for two and a half years now but nothing I try these days seems to cheer me up in the least. Its just getting to hard to fake being happy when going out in public and those silly little thoughts about suicide feel like they are...
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Hi, my names Adam and I'm addicted to comics and manga.

I've been late to class everyday this week because I just cant stop reading manga's and every time I finish one series I'll look for another. I enjoy manga almost more than enjoy comics which is saying alot and before I had a job and heavy class load I'd spend most of my free...
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Outside I am a simple soul
Inside the tempest rages
Outside I'm plain and slightly worn
Inside are beasts in cages
Outside the smile never dies
Inside sarcasm boundless
Outside is patience for all creatures
Inside I scream so soundless
Am I who I am on the outside?
Or is truth hidden inside?

by Michele Hart

I occasionally find things like this poem that comes...
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I can hear again now, apparently my ear canals were fulled with fluid from when I had the flu and it had to sucked out. It was little painful but atleast now I have more to listen too than a constant buzzing.

Other than that bit of good news my life is boring right now I haven't been able to work much so my debt...
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After seeing the doctor and having him not find anything wrong with my hearing, I was given antibiotics. The problem is now much worse and almost painful. II have to actually hold my ear open in order to here anything so I think now I must have a damaged eardrum but I have to wait till Thursday to see him again. Needless to say I...
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I'm a little nervous about tomorrow, I have a health problem and I have been keeping it to myself. For the last two weeks Ive been losing hearing in my right ear and last week I started having the same problem in my left. I had to wait a week to see a doctor because its flu season but I finally get to see one...
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I have decided to admit to myself that woman with red hair drive me completely crazy. I don't know why maybe its just the rarity. Sadly the only two Ive met in my life both died theirs because they hated it.

Yay im pretty much unemployed again ... oh wait

Heres a fun fact about me, I hate statistics it drives me crazy. I'm currently doing a paper on Quality Assurance which is just another fancy name for statistics and have to write a 500 word essay on a process that I understand what it does but not how it actually works. This makes 500 words seem like 5000.

I often wonder what it was exactly that made me give up trying to commit suicide. Was it just fear of being stuck in an institution or have truly accepted that it doesn't solve anything. I wish that when I reached the point in my life when I was able to overcome my constant attempts to escape it, it had been because I was no...
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