hodssorrow

I wonder what it says about that I miss my teenage years when I felt suicide was an option, simply because it gave me one. Depression always makes me feel like I'm trapped in a glass room with no doors. I guess its lucky for me that I learned suicide was bad idea and it would probably just take me from one glass room to...
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I woke up today to the discovery that I am going through a bout of depression yet again, I hate how it always sneaks up on me and there's really nothing I can do to get rid of it most of the time without taking drugs except wait it out. Of course every single one of the drugs I've ever tried has given me wonderful...
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I really wish I had a switch for my ability to love so I could put it in the off position it really never brings me anything but sadness in the end.

I finally got around to watching Coraline last night, I don't know why it took so long since I love the works of both Tim Burton and Neil Gaiman. I guess it might have been because several people had told me it wasn't any good but I still loved it and for some reason Coraline kept making me think of Silencia which was an added...
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So this is 2012 eh?

Lets hope I can get a job make friends an not have a year as lonely and empty as 2011 was in which I had nothing but Uni and stress. Still atleast I managed to keep my resolution of not committing genocide on an alien species. I think my resolution for 2012 will be not to create an army half...
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I'm still sick with whatever horrible bug I picked up on the flight back from Argentina. My Christmas was a bit of a disaster due to my flatmates constantly drama filled life but I hope everyone else had a great one. I have been up to much since then besides applying for every lab technician or assistant job that has come up in New Zealand...
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Drunk on Irish Christmas (whisky) and having a day filled with too much christmas drama but I hope e eryone else is e noting their holidays with friends and family

I dont really celebrate Christmas much for two reasons, one I am a pagan and two I am almost always alone but I was raised catholic and I love carols so I though I would post a few of my favourites.

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As you can tell I lovethem best in German, its just uch a beautiful language to sing in.

Not much to report right now, life has been pretty quiet since I got back to New Zealand. I some how managed to catcha virus onmy way back so I'm coughing upmy lungs right now but other than that all Ive managed to do is wright my CV and apply for two jobs. I've been spending most of my time stairingat employment websites waiting for...
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