Wednesday Feb 16, 2005

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The only thing I seemed worried about these days is my loneliness. God knows I need to find a job, but I just don't care right now.

Case in point:

Jake wants me to visit him on the east coast. I would love to see him, as I have not seen him in a year...since he moved back there from here.

Jake and I shared...
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susannahjoy:
i'd be careful. "seeing him would make me the happiest girl ever" - that one comment makes me nervous. you dont want to put too much emotional stalk in a guy who has been known to sleep around. if you think you're strong enough to know that it would probably just be temporary, enjoy the time you do have with him, and not get too upset if it doesnt work out, then great! it sounds like lots of fun! i dunno. just try not to get too emotionally involved would be my advice. which is pretty much useless cuz that's something that's really hard to control. *cough cough will cough cough* lol
shivasshakti:
Be careful; Susie's right. But you do have to follow your gut. I'm going through something similar right now. If not, you'll always wonder, "What if?"

And as far as the sleeping around goes, I love that you've put enough thought into it to know that some people just go through that. It sounds like you've got your head pretty square on your shoulders.

Good luck, girl! I swear I wish you the best.

Monday Feb 14, 2005

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It didn't work. He kissed me, and while he is a great kisser, I didn't feel a spark. Luckily we were open about it. He felt something, I didn't. Which made me feel really bad. He keeps telling me not to feel bad, that I didn't fuck anything up. But I can't help it. I knew that it would happen this way. Self-fulfilling prophecy? I...
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Friday Feb 11, 2005

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Call me xan: I have a low pain tolerance...piercings I can handle, but when my heart breaks--it shatters. and glass doesn't ever go back the way it was before it was broken.

*Name Withheld to Protect the Wonderful*: but it can be molded into something more beautiful than before

I think we're starting something here...something that's been sparking for almost a year. He would be...
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shivasshakti:
Sounds like fun! Good luck!
susannahjoy:
gotta love intriguing budding relationships! smile

Thursday Feb 10, 2005

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yay! New picture with my short black hair. I'm so cute.

So my best friend's boyfriend of five months broke up with her. She's taking it exceptionally well, but that may be due in part to the fact that she's been expecting it. In fact, she was thinking of breaking up with him a bit ago.

So I went to Incline last night to hang...
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shivasshakti:
Your picture is totally cute - you are adorable, girl!
susannahjoy:
very cute! heehee. good luck with the job. at least you're being responsible and trying to get a job even though you dont like it. i know a lot of people who were in a similar situation and refused to work anywhere that didnt require a degree. *shakes head* of course, i have no job right now, but that's different. i dont need one. one your way to oregon you should come to tehachapi! cuz it's so, um, out of the way.. blush

Monday Feb 07, 2005

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Sooooo long...

-Joshua broke my heart
-I graduated college (BA in English Literature)
-Moved to Reno
-Currently unemployed
-May have a killer job turning this author-guy's screenplay into a novel
-Thinking of moving to Oregon in June-ish
-Missing my friends in Incline
-Foot falling asleep

...and that's the update on my life.

I will no longer be a member of suicidegirls.com in March, 2005. That's...
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susannahjoy:
bok

Sunday Aug 01, 2004

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for some reason i can still read my journal and such. i'm not online much. anyway. i can be found on livejournal as chachuna, if anyone cares and wants to chat. don't be sad if i don't talk back for a while. i get online MAYBE once a week. ciao
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hockeyjunkie:
thanks for the birthday wishes kiss
godsmoker:
Nice name! biggrin I know the not online much thing myself. Only while I'm at work...

Thursday Jun 03, 2004

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I'm testing this. I cancelled my account, but I can still access it. I'm confused.
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howdidigethere:
eeek we have the same birthday
rybo:
wierd. too bad you left. we have a lot in common.

Sunday Apr 25, 2004

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Sometime during this week I'm going to cancel my account. I need the money back. I'm too poor to have to pay for a journal. Oh well. Shit happens.

Ciao kiss
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randumb_thought:
comon, you gotta back me up on this!

i'm sorry you're cancelling your account frown
susannahjoy:
why dont you just post something on the boards saying goodbye and being all supre dramatic? i did that and got 6 months free! smile

Wednesday Apr 21, 2004

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I got bored today and played with my new camera.

Of course, the NEXT folder of pictures will be from the formal...which is FRIDAY. After Joshua gets here TOMORROW.

Yeah, just a little excited.

But I feel like shit! I'm coughing like crazy. I have a sore throat, a headache, and a runny nose. Josh keeps telling me to get better...but it doesn't work on...
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deadred15:
Do you ever go up to S.L.T at all?
deadred15:
Tahoe's fun its a nice get away from all the drama you may have going on, nobody their to bother you nobody being asses and if you have friends up their and they start drama you can ignore it and go home and theirs nothin they can do about it.

You and you boyfriend should just take a trip up their one day when things are getting rough...

Just some advice

surreal

Wednesday Apr 21, 2004

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tomorrow he'll be here
tomorrow he'll be here

i can have my kiss tomorrow
i can have my kiss tomorrow

don't ask me why i had to say everything twice

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don't ask me why i had to say everything twice

Joshua will be here tomorrow!!

Ciao! kiss
deadred15:
You said don't ask but.... why did you write everything twice?
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