hippomonki

i delivered a box today, and think i got more heart ache than i was expecting
so, i'm drunk, i'm a little happy, i'm a lot sad. and heart broken, i'm confused, even if i know what my heart is dedicated to and i have a huge fucking need to be with some one, just making out and kissing and holding, mainly one fat kid in particular....
maybe i'm too busy for life and love, maybe i am to dedicated to the idea of a baby coming into my life, but i still have those needs to be loved and taken care of, just like i try and provide for the rest of the people i love..
in good news finding neverland was beautiful to watch even if it was missing it's connectability...
any how drunk rant over..
i should sleep, i have to open the store soon,
some body come and give me unconditional noncomittal love for the new year please
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