I am a weird girl. I have always been weird. I was weird in elementary school, people would make fun of me for wearing clothes from Wal Mart, and having Open toed Sandals. So I tried to change my look. I would go through the my cousins hand me downs. They were a bit older then me so their clothes were kinda big for me. Also they were boys so that might have something else to do with why he clothes were big on me. But they were skaters and athletes, so they had great brand names that I knew all the kids would recognize and like so I wore them anyways. I looked like a frumpy weird Girl wearing clothes that didn't fit me. After the Sixth grade I changed school districts. So I had a great oppurtunity to change my identity be a different person, and by this time in my life I was well in to MTV metal you know Slipknot, Marilyn Manson, KoRn, System of a Down.. So it was all black everything. To the point that my mom grounded me from wearing makeup. I was a goth which you know when you get older is a deep form of expression and an artistic way of living. But as a young girl at a school that's ruled by the preppy types it is simply misunderstood and mistreated. High School came along, and I cut my hair like David Bowie in the Labirynth and started wearing bows and big hoop earrings listening to a different kinda of metal. We we weird kids with weird hair and we listened to weird music and we made weird art. My Dad wasn't really a big influence in my life, so that brought on a lot of different variables, and many insecurities. Recently I have been doing a lot of reflecting and learning how to build up my confidence level. I'm 24 I still have a lot of time to figure myself out, but now I have something to channel a lot of my sexual and artistic energy into. I'm learning how to be in my body, and push things to the next level. I have only been a hopeful for less than 6 months and I literally can't wait to see all the oppurtunity that will come from it. I need more photographers that will see things in the same way that I do. I need women that will be strong and powerful influences in my life. And I need Men that will be positive and and strong influences in my life I need people that won't make fun of me or abuse me or make me feel less than, and either way I don't care because I know that I am worth it. SG puts me right in the middle of all the positive influence I could need! I am a weird girl. It's okay. I'm an artist, I'm a creative. I a lot cooler than the people from who I seeked approval. And it's okay for me to finally be me. I will always be weird.
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highunicorn_mal:
@aubrey ππ»ππ»ππ» Yes girl Preach!! I feel it. π
highunicorn_mal:
@lita yes I am so excited there is so much oppurtunity here and so many beautiful strong confident and different women here I'm always feeling inspired ππ