So life is ever changing... I've spent the last week and a half in Burlington, Vermont. Thinking I was moving here to start a new life for myself and my daughter... I hopped on the redeye two days before Thanksgiving. Its beautiful, the people are incredible, and I'm looking outside at snow falling to the ground. I thought it was a fresh start... a new beginning, but I guess I just wasn't ready yet. I'm leaving tomorrow, back to California to be with my family who has hardly done right by me. 
I'm so sad and really don't want to go *but* I also feel like I'm on the verge of a breakdown and I better get myself together before its to late. My life has been a HUGE roller coaster for the past several years. I enjoy the excitement but am completely fed up with the stress. All I can tell myself at this point is Burlington and this delicious Long Trail I'm drinking aren't going anywhere... I'll be back someday 
I'm so sad and really don't want to go *but* I also feel like I'm on the verge of a breakdown and I better get myself together before its to late. My life has been a HUGE roller coaster for the past several years. I enjoy the excitement but am completely fed up with the stress. All I can tell myself at this point is Burlington and this delicious Long Trail I'm drinking aren't going anywhere... I'll be back someday