herbalmama

Man it's been a long time. Life has been crazy, as always. Lots of big highs and lows. I'm still living in Scotts Valley with my daughter, boyfriend, and his daughter. It's an awesome life. So fulfilling, and rarely ever lonely. I did hit a rough patch, though... about two months ago. I just felt really sick all the time, and I started getting depressed (which was a road I went down before, and wasn't willing to go down again). I finally found the cause though, and am getting much much better. I found out that I have Candida and have probably had it for around seven years or so. Lots of things make sense now. All these symptoms that could never be explained before now suddenly make sense. I've had Candida for so long that there are lots of other health issues that have followed it and there is just a ton to treat. It's a long process, but it's totally worth it. I lost all the weight I wanted to lose and I'm in better shape now than I was even right before I got pregnant, so that feels good. I'm on the Hypoallergenic/Candida diet, so I pretty much can't eat anything but meat, fruit, veggies, and rice. It sounds rough but its amazing how much better it makes me feel (that and the $250 worth of supplements I take every day... and thats at wholesale cost since I work for my doctors). When I slip up on my diet... about every weekend right now... I really notice the difference. Mondays are usually the hardest. Anyway... so I'm getting well, and on my way to totally depression free for the first time in a very long time... but now I have this huge life altering thing going on at the same time.

My boyfriend got offered a job in Vermont. Its a really good opportunity for our family and I'm way excited about it. There are a million reasons why we should go, but its very scary at the same time. I'm just now getting well. Winter in CALIFORNIA makes me depressed and now I'm going to move to VERMONT? It's a little bit nuts. It's just so important that I stay well. My last serious bout with depression was before I was a mom. The only life I really had to worry about screwing up was my own. Now I know that I HAVE TO be well, for myself and for my family. Sounds like that would put a lot of pressure on me, but really... it motivates me. And my family is the best thing that has every happened to me. Having my daughter seriously saved me. Anyway, I think I'm just totally in shock right now. We'll be moved at the latest by Mid July.